1921

累，但快乐着。 Team Jojong strikes again 👧🏻👧🏻  Knowing that November is going to be tough and tiring, I contemplated giving this pet project up if not for the determined director jo ;) Ages since the last time we did a short film tgt, and the first time we’re doing this w a living human (thanks for helping us out w your great performance Yishun!) Glad that we’re doing something meaningful and thankful for the sharing sessions organised by smhff where I heard and learnt more about the less-known aspects of mental illnesses, as well as the important caregivers behind every struggling patient. Left Behind is for all caregivers out there, including my Uncle, whose efforts and sacrifices often go neglected when others focus solely on my grandma. And to everyone else, please remember to listen, to care, to be patient, and never leave them behind 🙏 . It was painful to hear from a patient on how there is nothing his loved ones could do to help lessen the pain, and even more he...

Woohoo hahahah I love concerts Gives me a great time of focusing and truly listening / appreciating the lyrics of every song Not to mention listening to the singer live is 😍😍😍 Came to know of 李榮浩 because of 偶練 那個嚴苛但很有父愛的李老師～ And the best takeaway would be hearing his 戒煙 with the trainees (+ 耳朵 with wangjiayi woots)  And yesterday was amazing with many 寶藏 lyrics found from the songs he sang （有的很戳我!!） 不要觉得你不够无价 越纯洁越是一种强大 · 也许你会犯所有人都犯的错 也许你会为一些人受些折磨 也许你遭遇一万五千种可能 人生就是人生 —《少年》 有时候被俗人批判 很难接受 有时候朋友背后说 我像小丑 假装路过 一笑而过 · 昨天留下的一滩 泪和汗 造就现在的我 越倔强越勇敢 —《成长之重量》 忘不掉的是什么我也不知道 想起当年模样 看也看不到 去也去不了的地方 也许那老街的腔调是属于我的忧伤 嘴角那点微笑越来越勉强 —《老街》 太多理所应当让人觉得平常 不算太小的房 冬暖夏凉的那间房着我的床 歌颂这种平凡 一两句唱不完 恩重如山 听起来不自然 回头去看  这是说了谢谢反而才亏欠的情感 —《爸爸妈妈》 Along with this song hehe here’s a note   Dad bought me a pair of new balance 880 that I’ve been aiming for a long time (at 30% off yassss) after we did a longer run in the aftn (6.97...

這趟旅程因《一定要相信自己》這首歌的MV而起 我莫名其妙地問了jo有沒有看過mv，要不要喝和盧廣仲一樣徒步環島 沒想到，她居然說她也正有此意 不得不說，我們真的是兩個瘋子hahahah 之後， 原本以為這個玩笑話不會成真的我 卻不知不覺就開始注意著飛機票價，和她計畫起2019年的哪一段時間更為合適 而就在盧廣仲宣布《大人中》演唱會將在4月28日舉行時 一切就有了定數。 算了算年假，再考慮下爸爸的生日， 嗯，就4月14日－5月1日吧。 在幾次面談計畫預定住宿，網路和簡訊討論，以及jo不間斷的安排下 我們準備好所有裝備（爸媽還陪我買背包旅行的東西） 一切就緒的我們（但其實很多事情都沒仔細安排） 就再14日的凌晨出發到我夢寐以求的台灣～ 話說台灣是我這麼多年來一直想去卻沒有去成的地方 它的戲劇、綜藝、歌手和藝人都在我成長階段啟發了我好多好多 這次去就好像是來到一致憧憬的地方 也像是回到爺爺家鄉的感覺 但也沒想到不去就不去，一去卻呆了17天，還環了個島。 而一個詞真的能概括這個旅途的重點：意料之外 出發前，我查看台北的天氣預報，天天晴朗，我開心得不得了 結果jo查了下，才發現台北如此，但其他地方卻不是。更荒謬的事，天氣預報我們每到一個地方，那一天就會下雨，離開就雨過天晴 結果，老天爺卻十分眷顧我們（多謝），多數日子都賞了好天氣 而就在我們覺得不會再下雨時，宜蘭卻下了一整天的雨哈哈哈 以為看不到夕陽，卻突然大晴天；有了期待之後，天空竟然烏雲密佈，甚至下起雨來 天氣大好，夕陽也就在眼前；但它卻突然躲到雲朵之間不再出來，夕陽又沒看成 想去參觀展覽，但它午休關門 看到網上的漂亮照片就去景點打卡，沒想到眼前的美卻不及照片的五分之一 （當然也不能忘了以為沒什麼的濕地卻成了清風拂面的清爽休息處） 計畫時40公里當4公里一樣說“一定行”，80公里也不當一回事 結果30公里要了我們的命，腳和肩膀痠得不行 山路崎嶇逼得我們下來推車，時速從20多km/hr降至4km/hr 我不可不服了我們的運氣，但我更佩服我們勇敢前行的衝勁 jo 真的是初生之犢不畏虎，無所畏懼的她時不時就讓我膽顫心驚 但我也慶幸自己沒在恐懼面前退縮害怕，甚至逼自己硬著頭皮往前衝不放棄 話說，我們途中在腳踏車店裡遇到兩位大叔， ...

昨天是小隊長盧廣仲的「大人中」演唱會 我第一次來到小巨蛋 第一次與舞台如此如此的靠近 但更重要的是 我第一次感受到了盧廣仲對音樂對生活的認真和超強的感染力 這一年來我受到了很多來給予盧廣仲的正能量 他的歌詞簡單 簡單到大家傻眼 不過卻那麼有意義和力量 「我想做的 永远都跟不上改变 改变需要勇气面对 我看得清楚 我看得非常清楚 如果真的要改变 那么再给我七天」— 七天 「世界和平不应该有伤害 请你走开 除非你改过向善」— 蚊子 這就是他平民樸實卻強大的正面影響吧 他感激神明保佑 他為放假三天歡呼 他說「善良是一個選擇」 他提醒大家每天都要吃早餐  他胃酸逆流擔心演唱會沙啞沒聲音 他感謝大家把28/4/19獨一無二的這一天交給他 他和我們一樣 都是彼此生命中的幾分之幾 回顧了之前寫過的post 真心的謝謝他的音樂陪我度過了許多混亂的低潮期 工作不如意 生活不順心 但他的歌詞和正能量都會讓我能夠找到安慰自己的方式 讓情緒正面回彈 「抬起頭才看見 流眼淚的星星 正在看著我 它説加油 讓我為你感到光榮」— 大人中 小隊長不是太陽 不需要任何人為他而轉 但他是星星 總會在黑夜中提醒你這世界還有希望 謝謝盧廣仲 也謝謝「花甲男孩轉大人」讓我認識他 謝謝 一切 「一切好美 好到我可以不用說話」- 幾分之幾 // 話說 他演唱 「一定要相信自己」時 好多好多這幾天在路途上的畫面一一浮現 高速公路上 漆黑的街道上 山路上 斜坡上 火車上 巴士/客運上 小吃店裡 便利商店裡 一點一滴 都是我們努力過的象徵 謝謝他的啟發 謝謝我們不放棄「一定要相信自己」這句話

Dad had food poisoning yesterday and vomited And I suddenly realised how much we depend on him for everything, as well as how lost we two become without him 😪 他真的為這個家做了很多事 承擔很多責任和壓力 Daddy 謝謝你 😘 Went to sing k w jo today cause she took leave And did many new songs again - lol at how we always have new songs to sing even though we’ve been singing k like once every one or two months 蘇打綠//盧廣仲//毛不易//薛之謙//尤長靖//陳立農 🙌🙌🙌

It was a busy week(end) last week Tired but fruitful nonetheless Sang k w jo on public holiday Friday  Haha and we had so much fun w sodagreen’s songs!!   And luguangzhong’s too even though we were super out of tune (he’s such a damn good singer oh god) Then toured around Tampines Malls hahaha kept walking to and fro places cause I indecisive  Then went back to have dinner w ahma where we kept laughing at how she pressed on my injury the moment I tried helping her up the stairs lol    Had a great lunch on sat w these pretty and nice people at chinatown before a 5 hour karaoke session haha we got so tired at certain points of time but Muni and mok sang rlly well ^^ Look at the pretty braids I tied for all three of us and sam’s new look (w sunglasses hooked on his shirt lol) Look at the fat sushi slices!!! Glad we got it at 40% off cause it’s rlly pricey pheww Sunday morning was spent at ECP for Father’s Day pinic specially organi...

Eventful past few days that I rlly enjoyed :) Met gen for dinner last fri where she gave me a nice nice treat  Woke up early on mon morn (once in a blue blue moon) to go gym to cycle but ended up running hehe   Met Joy at hood’s to listen to a band and heard my favourite 1006 song live by the singer herself  Went to K w jojong on the public hol where we sang many many songs that ppl normally don’t  Lol at her excitement at how I can sing so many songs even though I’ve never heard the full song before hahah And her shocked face when I teared while singing 幾分之幾 cause I got reminded of 花甲 and 阿嬤 Enjoyed my ovaltine Starbucks cake after that w mint mocha haha chocolate overload  Then met pama while they were exercising and went home to stuff ourselves w food at 9pm lol 

DAY ONE of my long awaited leave! Attended lensing for the web series and stayed back to observe how they film And it’s niceeeee  I love the additions made to the show like the fish tank and harassment   And finally able to appreciate the pdtn stuff so much more after my short film course - pan tilt adjust focus framing  I’m still clueless about assessing lighting and  acting but hopefully I’ll get to it someday :) Quite funny how someone shouted bloodyhell after a good take cause another person didn’t do a 连戏动作  Guess it’s gonna be a few difficult weeks ahead fr them but hopefully everything turns out well Can’t wait for the actual show!  Walked to Somerset with the intention to shop for clothes or hunt a reading corner  But ended up in sushi express having good food by myself hehe  Turns out to be rather therapeutic and I would prob do this another time when I need a break  Then walked all the way down in the ...

Before I move on to the scripts that are way overdue (ohmygod dies) I'm glad the last key assignment ended on a good note heh  With approx 50% of preprep effort, I did what I couldn't with 100% (which also gave rise to uncontrollable nerves, fear and choking from my contracted throat as I forgot to breathe) Finally finally  I presented like how I did when I was in Uni - calm, confident and w eye contact (okay I still brought the notes w me) but I think being chill and fearless helped so much  (Gosh the fears of imperfect Chinese was so damn real the previous time and it just screwed everything)  I love to see many ideas presented on our tv screens, even though the possibility of having most of it is kinda low But thankful and grateful  (Even though it's rlly damn tiring to do the slides oh god) Okay after a meal w jojong (兩個宅女難得出門的日子) A good night's sleep is essential and hopefully full force to the CYE scripts 💪

Met Jovina - and our meal plans always change at the last minute lol Proud that I dragged myself to meet her even though I was feeling sick w sore throat Ended up trying to nap at the Orchard library - and failed - but found a lot of Chinese books there Then had tomyum pasta and Starbucks cake - treat from jo's boss' starbucks card hehe Met LY and Kim after a Long Long while at City Hall Lol at my pretty sharp chin - how did it come about when my reflection still looks relatively hexagon now Had this Korean Mexican food and lady m hehe And chanced upon hon last sat when I went walking/jogging w my parents hehehehe While I only did 3.3km by myself I surprisingly did 5 + 2km w the girls last week Angela can run damn well and fast to our surprise hahaha While Mok ran w us in her dreams and join for lunch after lol Then I went back to rush 2eps in 3 days - new record fr me hahah (ended up cause boss forgot that I was supposed to have 2 more days to edit other eps ...

alright im getting lazier at this but i shall try recording as much as i can all for the sake of not forgetting what my life has been about a month/year later haha spent most of the week at home hehe and most nights awake to write my episode 19 :) // okay, i'm updating this a month after the actual date of these events lol got myself out of house to attend sam's grandpa's wake (after cancelling on gen twice :/) it's the first christian wake that i attend and it's kinda interesting how lively the atmosphere can be at certain times cause of the crowd, and how the usual curry chicken is replaced by a buffet spread but anyway, while we were joking about the quarrel btwn muni and mok this morning over what time to reach lol, glad to see that sam and his family are coping - seemingly - pretty well despite the loss could still recall how him talking about his grandpa falling in the toilet the previous time we met about... one or two months ago? events truly sur...

好的 this week has been a troubling one and one that is mentally tiring from all the internal struggles within me i remember feeling like i've offended three people directly and indirectly on monday which made me felt so tired out from all the need to give politically correct answers and maintaining beneficial work relationships it made me rethink and wonder if i could really come to work and do what i want most, which i assumed to be the core idea of the department, to write and produce quality local shows i was upset over ideas of settling for what's easy, safe to do what others have done, and being defensive over criticisms while you spend little effort on doing what could have been better i was lost over how i should perform at work, whether it's worth offending bosses simply for trying to improve a show that i'm not even credited, whether there is anyone in this place that treasures tv as much as i do i recall a boss saying that they want to improve as a wh...