1921

Feeling really happy cause the closest clique I have are all moving into different arenas this period of time hehe While muni’s engaged  Mok’s attached Angela’s doing masters  Yanci’s changing job (& finally ending her scholarship)   And sam finally a lawyer  I’ve also stepped out of my comfort zone and done many many new things this year  YAY feels like we’ve all grown tgt for a better us 💓🙆‍♀️

Some updates from the past month(s) Clearly using photos to remind me what happened while I was lazy to type my diary  Gonggong was hospitalised twice - once before my taiwan trip and one after  I literally checked in to the hospital before and after the trip  But thankful that while I was away  The family members never failed to stay w him through this tough time - and they made the effort to do so so that my dad won’t stay in the hospital for too many hours and tire himself out from responsibility  SF especially spent loads of time there - and here’s a picture that she drew while she was there 💓  Did two day-shifts at the hospital before I flew  One of which was the day the feeding tube was inserted into him and I got so emotional about it cause I feared it would hurt and demoralize him  But after I came back from toilet while the Nurses did the job (cause I wasn’t allowed to be beside)  It’s all done - and the nurse ...

Upon ci’s recommendation I woke up after a 7hr nap and went to the gym  for a 5km run on Tuesday morning (kudos to self for carrying on even though the first 2km was tiring) And felt really energised for the day So I continued for the next day and went for another 3km run after work at the stadium followed by an hour cardio blast session which nearly made my calves suffer in cramps Now the body’s aching and I couldn’t get up this morning But it has indeed felt really good to keep myself moving  Thanks ci for the reminder  And thanks to self for making the attempt to become a better wei 💕

每個人對「長大」的定義都不一樣 我的想法，若不是你的想法，也不是他的想法 難道我錯了嗎 還是你錯了 可是又有誰能判定「對」歸誰「錯」歸誰 好久沒有體驗到心裡掙扎一陣的感覺 只是心裡隱藏了好幾個月的話我好想說卻又不敢說 最後我說了出來 原本以為說出來能改變些什麼 但最終改變了的，在一定程度上，卻是我的想法 對於別人 我總是選擇尊重他們的看法 但或許對真正放在心上的朋友來說 這變得何其不易 「尊重 體諒 接受」 或許我只完成了三分之二的過程 但若想讓你繼續在我的生命裡 那最後一個階段 我必須心甘情願 全心全意地去「接受」 Many learning points from the clique today  And it was probably the most brutally honest meet up we’ve had over the past few years  Learnt more about S realisation that what was isn’t what he truly believed in M issue with lateness and progressing in life stages heh Y dislike for tantrums and  MN realizing that we have gone on different paths after all - 這真的戳心了 😪 And that choosing and committing selves to relationships of any kind entails growing up tgt and working the differences out  If we didn’t sign up for it, you can work hard to make it work, but if it doesn’t, then quitting is just a natural process to go through  Ci said：「或許不再天真單純 可是你會擁有...

It was a busy week(end) last week Tired but fruitful nonetheless Sang k w jo on public holiday Friday  Haha and we had so much fun w sodagreen’s songs!!   And luguangzhong’s too even though we were super out of tune (he’s such a damn good singer oh god) Then toured around Tampines Malls hahaha kept walking to and fro places cause I indecisive  Then went back to have dinner w ahma where we kept laughing at how she pressed on my injury the moment I tried helping her up the stairs lol    Had a great lunch on sat w these pretty and nice people at chinatown before a 5 hour karaoke session haha we got so tired at certain points of time but Muni and mok sang rlly well ^^ Look at the pretty braids I tied for all three of us and sam’s new look (w sunglasses hooked on his shirt lol) Look at the fat sushi slices!!! Glad we got it at 40% off cause it’s rlly pricey pheww Sunday morning was spent at ECP for Father’s Day pinic specially organi...

Met Jovina - and our meal plans always change at the last minute lol Proud that I dragged myself to meet her even though I was feeling sick w sore throat Ended up trying to nap at the Orchard library - and failed - but found a lot of Chinese books there Then had tomyum pasta and Starbucks cake - treat from jo's boss' starbucks card hehe Met LY and Kim after a Long Long while at City Hall Lol at my pretty sharp chin - how did it come about when my reflection still looks relatively hexagon now Had this Korean Mexican food and lady m hehe And chanced upon hon last sat when I went walking/jogging w my parents hehehehe While I only did 3.3km by myself I surprisingly did 5 + 2km w the girls last week Angela can run damn well and fast to our surprise hahaha While Mok ran w us in her dreams and join for lunch after lol Then I went back to rush 2eps in 3 days - new record fr me hahah (ended up cause boss forgot that I was supposed to have 2 more days to edit other eps ...

For some unknown reason, We started out on this fortnightly exercise/workout tgt And the first round was a short hike to be Hendersons wave We kept questioning why we did this when we first started out cause there were so many steps in the first section of the hike Even met a stray dog along the way but all went well simply by following mok's lead ^^ Did some core exercises at the wave - prob looked quite funny to onlookers haha - but it was super useful cause I ended up having serious muscle aches, burns (from the hot floor) and blueblacks for a few days 😂 Wanted to go hike at Bukit Timah hill the following Sunday but weather forecast wrongly predicted that it was gonna rain So off we went to Punggol waterway fr a short circle (lol all short distance stuff haha) And all of us were late w three of us sleeping at 3am the previous day lol Muni ended up having faint spells - either dehydration or heatstroke - and so all of us stopped to deal w the life threatening crisis ha...

First trip w them to JB and it was a nice getaway from the usual routine :) Explored the expensive cafe street, bought the banana cake, shopped at watsons (many times for some unknown reasons), ate nice salted egg and cereal tzechar, guessed the price game for every meal, saw new sides of one another in the karaoke room, got dissed about my conflicting cleanliness issues, amazed by their skincare routine which I lack so much in comparison, squeezed at the back of the uberXL, competing over custom queues, and becoming tired at the end of the two days Thankful for this bunch, who has tolerated all my nonsense and social exclusion behaviors While the future will always be unknown, living in the present seems like quite a wise and comfy choice 🙂 Doubts and confusion aloom, but resilience and trust is my only weapon against the odds

this is being updated at a week late so there are many things that i can't remember hahah monday was spent reconciling me with reality haha though i kinda really got over it on wed when i was actually alright with the negative thoughts i had last week good news was ending work early on fri cause my boss had to send his wife off hehe and we caught a big big double rainbow outside office :D  met up w the gr8 ppl - though we are only left with 5 people hahah - for muni's bday celeb short but sweet meeting as usual cause xiaowei is late once again (DUE TO WORK) hehehe the mac n cheese was yummmmz but jelat so nearly half of it is unfinished :( weekend was spent with the family as usual but slightly different this time round mama went to gran's on saturday so papa and i decided to try out the new route to ecp (which was said to be there since 2-3 years ago but i've never noticed haha) it's a rather quiet road that i don't think i'...

Monday:  Three things happened today that struck a few thoughts  1. Reflection on our shows after hearing abt the entertainment production industry in Korea    A colleague came back from a short exposure stint in Korea and shared w us on how Korean produces dramas and variety  What impressed me most was the attitude and professionalism every single member of the production team has towards their work From cameramen to artistes, writers to directors, everyone treats the show as their own, and makes ample preparation before they turn up for work  Every detail is taken care of, and not a single minute is wasted for slip shod efforts  While we lament about the lack of resources, budget, restrictions, talent, etc., there they are honing their skills futher to produce shows that can supersede their previous miracle True that they have a lot more than what we do, but also a fact that they work better as a team to create better program...