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for the first ever time in my life, i experienced what tears of joy was ♥ so many months of efforts finally paid off when we got our gold with honors :) we couldn't imagine what it would be like if it was gold, without honors, (epic story was sherman moving away from the chair when he realised he wouldnt know how to react if it was gold lol) screams in the guitar room when the "dunman high school, gold with honors" sounded from ms huda's phone and the panda loudspeaker was a great sound of music that depsite the lack of pitch and melody, it was music with emotions, with excitement, with love from all DHSGE members :) i'm glad that i didn't succumb to the temporary weakness at the start of the year :) (and that i have to thank the first exchange programme that sparked off my passion once more) there's just so many things in me that kept my smile to my face from the release of results till now but so much emotions that keeps words from flowing out from my fi...

4 more dayssss... DHSGEGWHFTW:D feel more confident todayy, but yet uncertain for wednesday all the same omgggggggggggggggg

On a cold October morning, my ten-year-old daughter, Julia, sat at our kitchen table and contemplated the Earth's layers. She had been tasked with making a cross-section of the planet's interior: core, mantle and crust. Now she needed to decide what materials to use for a three-dimensional model. ... 'Julia, what do you want to use? Playdough?" I imagined concentric rings of clay, balls within balls, cut in half to reveal the earth's multi-coloured strata. "Or would you like to cut a strofoam ball in half? You could paint the earth's layers onto the flat centre." Julia shook her head. "Well, what do you want to use?" "Fruit," she said. "Fruit?" "Yes, fruit." From the basket in the center of our kitchen table Julia lifted a kiwi, then took a steak knife and cut it in half. She held the green fruit to my eyes, and there was a model of the Earth: the white core, surrounded by squishy green mantle, with black seeds ...

最近的我常說我要做編劇， 但想想，無須當編劇， 寫個小故事，筆出個小感動， 甚至以自己的小觀點令人有點小感悟， 心中就會有小小的滿足和成就感。 可能，我的名字如此的小，就是意味著我未來小小的成就 這一切，不過是個夢想、理想， 但只要努力，它就能成為現實， 加油:)

我很慶幸我有非常在乎我們、又不斷能激勵我們的一群老師:) ... 但我第一次，真正地因那幾句“鼓勵”感到挫敗 "... 不要讓別人說lep的人說華語像在說英語..." 可能只是頓時感到努力不被認可、 引以為傲的語言和成績被擊垮 我知道它很糟糕，但怎麼讓十幾年的習慣改變呢？ 因為缺少先天（或後天）的條件，我只好不斷努力以求改進 :(

我想說的是， 謝謝你們的關心和體諒，細心和敏感。 我很情緒化， 當我的朋友，抱歉，你們辛苦了... 但我會改善，我會更堅強 :) ... 但我永遠不會忘記那深深的罪惡感， 那個造成現在無法彌補的自私和無知。 請不要放棄自己，奶奶，很痛，但拜託，不要放棄...

it was supposed to be a good night, but a news struck the family, and all that was left, was fear. just as i finished typing the prev post, a call came in and i was informed that my uncle will be sending me to hospital, and at then, i realised it would be way pass the visiting hours when i reach. i wasn't told why, but i got a clue from their hasty words, a clue that something was wrong. filled with fear, especially when i'm all alone in the house, i fear that whatever i imagined would come true, i fear the sense of loss that we would all feel if it truly happened, i fear the grief that would accompany whatever that may come. when i was in the car, everything, everywhere, everyone was in a rush, a question "what did your mum told you in the call" made me even more wary, and thank god, thank god that a call came and said, "tell him it's okay, there is no need to rush". a burden off my mind, but another fear that what i thought really happened, and worried...

even though you will never, and i hope you never, see this, happy birthday daddy :) didn't do much this year, but we all know how hard life has been for you. i have no idea how to put my concerns into words, and even harder to express it for you to know, but i truly hope that life will start being kinder, and grandma will pull through the whole period of illness and emerge healthier than before. it hurts to see her going through the pain, but we all know how much it hurts you more even if you tried to act as though you'll accept whatever that comes. family problems occurring every now and then over so many issues, not to mention the constant worry you have over work and sustaining our income, i just hope that i won't be any addons to the overwhelming burden that you have been carrying, but a little support that can elevate any pain of yours. thanks daddy for always always being a support, a shoulder, a pillar that i can always lean on, stay strong, for both mummy and i will...

棒棒堂的精神 :) 敖犬： 我們六個堅持的一個想法就是 我們永遠都要這麼的不忘記根本 然後歌迷他們會覺得 我們跟他們的貼近 然後他們會覺得說 我們做得到的 他們也做得到 我們算是一個標榜 這樣他們才會跟隨我們的腳步 我們不僅是表演給他們看 也可以當作他們人生的一個力量

even though it wasn't a totally happy day for her, HAPPY BIRTHDAY AHMA :D and it's my grandpa's tmr! ah, maternal grandma today, paternal grandpa tmr :D HAPPY BIRTHDAY GONGGONG :D and it's my dad's sooon :D

戰場上，有勝有敗。 勝為何？敗為何？ 勝又如何？敗又如何？ despite the many smile and shrieks of excitement, isn't it quite a pity that after a whole year's worth of work, all that we received is a half-hour lecture that says 93.2% A? but upon seeing this paper, the time is definitely well spent and effort very well made:D really really really glad the whole of 6C11 got, like what ms huda said, our well deserved distinctions :D this is where efforts equate to the results achieved, even though it doesn't happen often, if you never try, you'll never attain any result :) and definitely, very very grateful for all the teachers' hard work in vetting drafts one after another and sitting through similar presentations without complaints :D our bessssssst PW teacher ms hudaaaa :D and hod mr martin chew :D let it not be the last smile we're gonna have dear mates! to make the past year and the A for pw worthwhile, we have to persevere even more and attain grades that our potential has :) jiayoujiayou,...

as i was doing my fifth round for 2.4, an idea flashed past my mind :) LOLLIPOP :) seeing them ytd has definitely diminished some some little little admiration cause they are after all, not untouchables ._. hahaha but it gave me more motivation! :) 再辛苦，棒棒堂都撐過去了， 筱微加油！:) ah which reminds me of how weilian called my name ytd awww :) in anyyyyy case, it's back to school, it's back to study. thanks to all my friendyfriendfriends who got worried abt my sleeping condition and i promise mooooktard to sleep before 12 tonight, so i shall :) ... but probably wake up at 5 or 6 to read hist notes for tmr's timed assignment. but in any case, glad that i went to their autograph session :D albeit some disappointments due to high expectations, but i enjoyed it much :D ohohoh, my 2.4 timing was ard 14:25, my personal best under 3 months plus of training under mr kwok :) even though not an A, not that i thought i could anw, but it met the hon-xiaowei pact of 2009 to be 14:XX :D and congrats ...

been looking out for their updates everywhere every moment i on my com hahaha gogogo lollipop fffffffffff :D i even texted in to 93.3 ytd to ask if they'll appear there but unfortunately, noooooooooo :( but ai wei going to impressio, oh man, I WANNA GO! anyone interested to go with me? ^^ ah, to think that i cant go for e awards when it's at SINGAPORE STADIUM DDDD: so nearrrrrrrr and i'm actually going for autograph session at IMMMMMM so faaaaar ah sigh, but it's kay, at least i can see them upclose tmr! :D their updates :) LOLLIPOP_F阿緯：吃完飯去彩排，然後是....忙裡偷閒 l love 新加坡~ LOLLIPOP_F威廉：四個人在一起就是有一種魔力，我們不段搞笑不段耍帥不段嘻鬧，感情也是不斷，LOLLIPOP F就像是一個家，我們會吵架，會鬧為什麼他穿比較帥，但我們就是流著一樣的血，我們從家裡長大各自要出外打拼，吃苦、受委屈、被欺負了，都是茁壯的過程，但只要一回到家就是最開心最安全的屏障我愛我的家LOLLIPOP F LOLLIPOP_F小煜 ：準備出發了醒過來~~~~~~~~ LOLLIPOP_F敖犬 ：新加坡e樂大賞，出發！ I CAN'T WAIT FOR TMR, SERIOUSLY EXCITED TTTTTTTTTTTM!!!! :D ah anw, 滚滚's brithday (and jovina and hanxi and chihsiong) but yup, the fans are so nice to make the video awww happy bir...

as i was deleting & scanning through my camera photos i kind of made a realisation, 每個人的故事里，都有他們心目中的主角， 而我父親所拍的照片中，就透露了我母親女主角的地位 :) then again, there's still my grandma that's on par, and my granddad as his 最佳男主角 :) LOLLIPOPF's 最佳男配角！ 劉俊緯 :D LOLLIPOP_F阿緯：新加坡好翹ing hahahaha great hair LOL & another photo update by 敖犬！:D LOLLIPOP_F敖犬： 和妳分手了三年，今天我們終於又 舊情復燃了，妳依舊是這麼吸引人又辣，但抱歉我又把妳吃了，螃蟹小姐，愚人節快樂 I CAN'T WAIT TO SEEE THEM ON SUNDAYYYY :D:D:D AND ALL THE FANCAM VIDEOS OMGGGGGG :D been stalking their fb twitter and youtube for the whole day HEHEH :D

LOLLIPOP F IS IN SINGAPORE NOWWWWWWWWWWWW :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D pity that i can only go for the autograph session, but the next time they arrive, i'm gonna go as many as possible :D:D:D hahaha oh man EXCITEDTTTTTTTTM :D:D:D LOLLIPOP_F敖犬：明天Lollipop F要去新加坡宣傳了，我們又在秘密基地練舞中，不知道三年前那隻辣椒螃蟹會不會跟我們見面，新加坡歌迷我們明天見ccccc and i'm grateful for having amazing seniors :) thanks for the encouragement! :D