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懂得 詞/曲：廖俊傑 a1 我開了一盞燈 只能照自己的燈 整個世界 只有我 是亮的 a2 我獨自哼著歌 只聽見自己的聲 唱完主歌 才發現 只有寂寞懂我最深 b 為甚麼 為甚麼 我這樣對自己問著 期待愛 期待能 有人能給我 擁抱溫存 c 也許 我沒有那麼的獨特 讓你看見了我的可能 但是我 一直都 不放棄仍努力著 c 我相信有片天是我的 我要飛到那贏得掌聲 堅持的歌聲 相信會有人 懂得 p.s:每首歌都有他的故事...透過歌聲...相信你們會“懂得”我在說甚麼（傑） nice nice nice :D maths is over, a big big big burden off my load :) not sure how the results will turn out to be but hopefully hopefully, hon's idea will come true and we'll both jump along the corridor outside our classrooms :)

awwwwww ah and honnnnnnnn loves many thankssssssss againnnnn :D ah i feel like i owe you so many thankyous ahahah

hey this is the thousandth post o.o but. wth get your attitude get any suckier? it' my bloody exam tmr i'm gonna keep all the tears and change it into the motivation to continue doing what you were supposed to help me with. [edit] many thanks for the effort really thankyou for all these years realllly thanks :D bloody f. i'm dead scared that i'm gonna screw my maths up tmr :( my results may have been well for the past months but bloody shit ass it's not in any right state now so great thanks if you can just shut up when it comes to math and assume xiaowei is doing well cause whatever you says simply makes it worse. stfu.

小傑's BIRTHDAY :D 敖小犬小敖 / 棒棒堂敖犬 今天是我兄弟廖俊傑的生日，你們以為我忘記了嗎？那你們就太天真了，我要祝你早日買車然後嗆邱勝翊，祝lolly可以越來越聰明，祝你早日跟我作出屌歌，很實際吧哈哈，要開心啊廖禁茄！ LilJay廖俊傑 莊敖機機機我想先買房子啦!!!但我會買悍馬撞爛你們的車的~~ 哈哈哈哈 你別忙到忘記照顧自己!! 屌歌等我們改天再來衝一個吧!!!謝啦兄弟~~ 不是要釣蝦!! :D:D:D ah but he said 哈 想到一開始近這圈子居然跟你不合到現在我們這麼瞭解彼此！！ 我很珍惜跟你的一切！！ 謝謝你曾經陪我走過我人生最難熬的一段時間！！很多事情你懂！！ 我們繼續加油！！ to prince kay i truly wonder what caused the split in bbt ahhhh kays enough fangirlinggggsszxzxxsz workworkwork! mathsmathsmaths! :)

it does wonders :) all those reflection are what i gained from talking to yanci even though it was a short talk but yes, by knowing how she and angela had mugged their ass off, i just come to realise how sucky i was in this period of time in my attitude towards studying. and people, let's keep it status quo please. but anyway, on a positive note! THANKS HONHONNNZSXZSXZSXZ ♥ FOR ALL THE ENCOURAGEMENTS AND EVERYTHINGGGGGG ah mrs shu was so nice today :D she said "要考好哦" when i was on my way to history H20s ♥♥ Mrs Shu!:D hahahaha ah and (chow) liying was so sweet today with the never give up because you know you can do it note :D many thanks CLL classmateeeeeee :D i suddenly have a few people in mind... ah thanks for being in my life :)

knowing that i didn't put enough effort for promos, i can imagine how guilty i'm going to feel if anything bad results come to me. i don't understand why i know the imptance of promos that's 60% and i freaked out at the thought of how it's going to determine everything but i subconsciously allowed myself to feel contented with morn/aftn revision such that i slack every second the moment i got home. now that 4 exaams are over, and 2 more to go i know that i can't change anything and if i am made to retain because of this ultimate slackness i allowed myself to enjoy i, and i myself had caused the eventual result of failure. but why, why is it that this realisation came a bit too late? and why isit that knowing the imptance and deadly nature of promos, i actually allowed myself to slack??? where is the mugger from last year? ah jianing, i miss your accompaniment in mugging and mutual motivation :(

HONYING:D she made me laugh/smile again :D

IT'S AN ULTIMATE E4 DAY! :D with his smartness, i'm very sure he's gonna pwn his nearing examinations. happy E4 day! :D DERRICK ON 17TH FIONA ON 18TH E4 ON 19TH XIAOJIE ON 25TH! ah sept such a good month:) ... only that it's a mugging month too :) and :( i keep thinking and thinking but there isn't a result to this. and i suppose you've changed, thus, our paths will never cross again. HISTORYYYYYYYYYYY Nowwwww

i don't know what are the right words to say but it was a great, pleasant, but not so pleasant realization. imissyouwithoutknowing:(

after a looooooooooong wait and waiting for coincidences, ah yay i got it :D full bbt fb on lolly's fb favourite page :D this shows that there's always a chance if you try! :d maths time! :D

I♥HONYING :D awwwww sweetsxzsxzxs girl ♥

taking a break from 6 hours of gp :) @棒棒堂敖犬：今天拍到半夜就殺青了，即將跟曹國勝說再見，很棒的經驗，認識了很多朋友，『那些年，我們一起追的女孩』，一定會很棒的，接下來...要好好當莊濠全，我準備好了，ccc @LilJay廖俊傑:那些年,我們一起追的lolly~~~ 努力會讓人看見的！！ @棒棒堂敖犬:Lolly不是人人追的到的，尤其她衝向馬路挑戰大卡車的魄力 @LilJay廖俊傑：真的！！我突然想起她衝向馬路我冒著生命危險把她抱起來！我暈 @王子邱勝翊：雖然今天不是Holiday …但是累了好幾天還是要take a break…按摩放鬆一下：） @棒棒堂敖犬 :小子你在幫我們打歌喔哈哈，我今天要殺青了，回台北找小傑出來釣蝦啊 @王子邱勝翊:當然要打一下啦：）okok~等我們回去再約…我想蝦子想我們了 @棒棒堂威廉:那是蝦子釣我們還是我們掉蝦子阿??? @王子邱勝翊：是蝦子釣我們：）哈哈…！！ these conversations totally made my day :) hahaha actually not that much, but i'm smiling loads now hahaha ah when 王子 said 不管怎樣，我都會陪著他的 to 小傑 ah totallly T.T and this one :( from 1:53 to 2:30 ah :(((((((((((((((( feel damn sad T.T 小傑：“最近發生了很多事情，那相信大家一定看著... 心裡一定很難過，但我覺得... 這種飛是另外一種六個人一起成長的方式” 王子："我們是從棒棒堂出來的，那但是現在很可惜... 大家沒辦法一起努力，所以就在這邊就先跟你們說 對不起” ah especially 王子's, T.T ah but 小傑's words made me think of what ELMO said when he gave up 二軍 ”只是目標就在那邊，成功的果實也是在那邊 只是你的路怎麼走 不一定 每一個人都不一樣“ ah just didn't expect it to apply to lollipop today :( butbutbu...

had the last gp tuition for yr5 and hope it really helps cause i benefitted quite a bit :) ah the teacher's so nice :D jiayoujiayou! i've set my target on immigration but if it doesn't come out, i hope i'll be able to get through it but now, national day rally! watched the whole rally and found it really engaging shall read the whole 95 paragraphs of it by tmr :)

“没有人有耐心听你讲完自己的故事，因为每个人都有自己的话要说；没有人喜欢听你抱怨生活，因为每个人都有自己的苦痛；世人多半寂寞，这世界愿意倾听，习惯沉默的人，难得几个。我再也不想对别人提起自己的过往，那些挣扎在梦魇中的寂寞，荒芜，还是交给时间，慢慢淡漠。”——几米 经典语录： 活得糊涂的人，容易幸福；活得清醒的人，容易烦恼。这是因为，清醒的人看得太真切，一较真，生活中便烦恼遍地；而糊涂的人，计较得少，虽然活得简单粗糙，却因此觅得了人生的大滋味。 精彩语录： “所谓练习微笑，不是机械地挪动你的面部表情，而是努力地改变你的心态，调节你的心情。学会平静地接受现实，学会对自己说声顺其自然，学会坦然地面对厄运，学会积极地看待人生，学会凡事都往好处想。这样，阳光就会流进心里来，驱走恐惧，驱走黑暗，驱走所有的阴霾。” cool quotes, not the best, but these quotes often points out the truth of life.

argh went to search 王子 小傑 on youtube then saw all the vids on their 舞可取代音樂會 then all the vids captions as 棒棒堂 songs but sung by either 王子＋小傑 or with other people :( especially 祕密基地 which has such significant lyrics for them :( and 我是傳奇 argh lyrics is 敖犬‘s! and they used the dance too :((((( even 夏日初體驗 which is like their first song wth shitzszxzxzs :( wanted to watch the vids but couldn't bring myself to click it :( searched happily, only to find all 棒棒堂's songs no longer by the old 棒棒堂 is :((((((((( ah but at least 我們之間 wasn't sung, 我們之間, is only only only for 棒棒堂 - 敖犬+小傑+小煜+威廉+王子+阿緯 and no one else. ah and i searched for 棒棒堂 too and some vids captions are like 棒棒堂四分五裂找張芸京湊人數 argh irritating :(((((((((((((((( wanted to watch too but baaaa :( but there's one, that :) like 敖犬：分家不影響棒棒堂感情 which is still evident by their interaction on t.sina :) argh i feel so stupid and i'm sure i'll feel that i'm stupid when i read this post next time hahaha ah but 棒棒堂 :(((((...

明知不可為而為之 To do the Impossible. just saw that in the 10pm lawyer show cooool. had much problem writing an introduction for two days arghzxsxszxzs and wrote one just now :) found it pretty okay and hope it is reallly okay even though i took 1.5 hours to write it. ah gp promos on thurs, jiayou jiayou jiayou! :D ah and signed on to t.sina to follow bbt and other cool people :D and followed this 精彩语录 which is pretty cool with their quotes today's: 精彩语录：“所有的失败都是为成功做准备。抱怨和泄气，只能阻碍成功向自己走来的步伐。放下抱怨，心平气和地接受失败，无疑是智者的姿态。抱怨无法改变现状，拼搏才能带来希望。真的金子，只要自己不把自己埋没，只要一心想着闪光，就总有闪光的那一天。” yeap, it shall be a motivation for promos along with To do the Impossible.

:D:D:D surprisingly well as in not well to some but improved bbt :D:D:D what a great way to start school ah many loves bbt :D

失敗後說加油的人是最支持你的 但這些加油卻是讓你覺得最愧疚的 除了為“加油”謝謝，之後還有滿滿的對不起 因為你辜負對你充滿期望和支持的親人。 張芸京 is great ttm :D i saved a whole loads of FTisland + Hongki/Jeremy + Taeyang & Bigbang photos ytd. woooooots and some bbt too! :D ah anyways, just read an article a great man with his ailing wife. behind the strong front and smile that has became part of his political life, many have forgotten that he is still like a normal man but worse, facing the truth that your wife is suffering by your side, and what's in front, is all bleak, and what's approaching, is death. cried at the actions he did, and the pain he's going through behind the scenes and thought about how the young can't understand and simply seek things like freedom for their own interest, at the expense of the country's stability. nope, that's isn't the way it's supposed to be. whatever it is, 別人的成功是因為他們付出的努力 如果死到臨頭還不知用功， 那失敗也不足為奇。 但我不要。 shall do a gp essay now. 加油! :D

ms mona lim is soooooooooooooooooooo nice :D she treat all of us to dinner :D cost damn alot and she treated so niceeeeeeeeeeee :D i'm more determined to ace econs :D thankyou ms mona! :D

aishhhhhhh joyce tan made me interested in playful kiss but, after promos! i've pushed summer's desire and zhong wu yan back, so will playful kiss. but now now now HOW TO PUSH MFBBT BACK :( keep watching every night ooh man, this is baddddddddddd. i realised, this is the 3rd year that i'm watching bbt videos before promos/eoys great job man :/ xiaojie and wangzi having concert at hk now! JP Jay and Prince :D this was the first time lollipop went to hk :) and all of them are at hk now! but at different stages :( JP on stage, Lollipop either somewhere else or under there watching (AH I BET THEY WILL SAY HI/WAVE/SIGNAL THEIR PRESENCE THEN THE AUDIENCE WILL SCREAM AND SHOUT BBTBBTBBT BUT ME NOT THEREEEEE :( :( :( ) and on 12th, this is going to happen again but Lollipop on stage ahhhhhhzxxszxsz :( school's starting soon, promos coming soon, academic death may be approaching soon, but my prevention starts now.

i think... it's fate. HAHA :D last minute decision to come home after studying (or attempting to study productively) from 9+ to 5. unexpected decision to on tv yu le bai fen bai and and and, it's just fate :D XIAOJIE and WANGZI and FANFAN news :D ohyeaaaaaaaa :D ah but really :( that it's only 2 people but really :) glad they are covered :) ah but very :( unproductive day again! despite really sitting down to study i still can't, and only managed to finish chap 6 of econs for 8 hours?! zzz

ahhhhhhh told esther that i'm rewatching bbt but i just realised that i'm rewatching, not because there isn't any new ones to watch, but because they have disbanded and won't appear tgt again :( and that days of the past is so so so so so much better ahhhhhhh 棒棒堂

AH BUT I WISH YOU WELL EOM :D, cause if you don't, i have to do it againnnnnnnnnn. hahaha probably due to esther's words/tag of wisdom I COMPLETED EOM TONIGHT! after sleeping on my com for 3 nights and unable to change any word YEASS IT'S DONE, FINALLY. even though it's the bloody 3rd draft only. well, econs tmr. after failing to complete CLL and maths for the past 2 days. ah, hope econs do some good to me :)

:( it's not a marvelous song but 4 of them really really really improved. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh but the other 2 missing voices, would definitely make it much betterrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. only fabian can sing, and wayne's making it much better but william and owodog's is... without brian and prince to cover, craps, i can't see how lollipop is going to make it in the industry other than variety shows. haha it feels weird to call all of them in english o.o 我要以前的棒棒堂，還有模范棒棒堂 :( ah but what a suitable title. the song, and the current sept "holiday". been mugging, at least attempting to, but fruitless, totally. haven't learnt anything new, and freaking EOM bugging me damn it.

黑人 法律剩下虛偽的正義.公理變成掌權者認為的鬧劇.人心在慾望之前消失殆盡.最後這個世界還有什麼餘地？小老百姓的怒吼無法撼動高塔,成功者與名人少有人挺身而出 went back with ella after tuition and hahaha discover a side of her i never knew wooooooooooooooooooooooooow :D and haha vicious cycle in this group of friends man yingying -> angela -> me xiaowei -> muni HAHA sick sick sick such good friends we are mannnnzsxsz AND I JUST SAW MR SNG ON NEWS :D:D:D yea oh it feels weird talking to esther about guides (on sat) hahaha our conversation seems to be guitar and gp tuition and other stuff but not things like "go read proposal la" HAHA hongszxxzsxzzz :D and YESYESYES CHILDREN'S DAY WITH KIMCHAMZ XINTIANS AND HONSZXZZS :D:D anyway, many things happened these days, interestingly, but can't recall much hahaha first priority: MUGMUGMUG. yet to do so though :( one thing struck me though, regarding my cousin, but i agree with what he said, only that the time is probably not appropriate for him to decide what he wants and it's probably the tim...