1921

不喜欢把自己的价值交给别人去判定 不喜欢把自己的自信建筑在别人的回复 不喜欢让自己忐忐忑忑对自己充满疑虑 不喜欢自己明明想说又不说地掩饰自己 更爱自己多一些 你很棒 确实是一种新体验 不得不说 我应该更能揣摩暗恋不安/熟女焦虑的情绪戏了😂

Woohoo hahahah I love concerts Gives me a great time of focusing and truly listening / appreciating the lyrics of every song Not to mention listening to the singer live is 😍😍😍 Came to know of 李榮浩 because of 偶練 那個嚴苛但很有父愛的李老師～ And the best takeaway would be hearing his 戒煙 with the trainees (+ 耳朵 with wangjiayi woots)  And yesterday was amazing with many 寶藏 lyrics found from the songs he sang （有的很戳我!!） 不要觉得你不够无价 越纯洁越是一种强大 · 也许你会犯所有人都犯的错 也许你会为一些人受些折磨 也许你遭遇一万五千种可能 人生就是人生 —《少年》 有时候被俗人批判 很难接受 有时候朋友背后说 我像小丑 假装路过 一笑而过 · 昨天留下的一滩 泪和汗 造就现在的我 越倔强越勇敢 —《成长之重量》 忘不掉的是什么我也不知道 想起当年模样 看也看不到 去也去不了的地方 也许那老街的腔调是属于我的忧伤 嘴角那点微笑越来越勉强 —《老街》 太多理所应当让人觉得平常 不算太小的房 冬暖夏凉的那间房着我的床 歌颂这种平凡 一两句唱不完 恩重如山 听起来不自然 回头去看  这是说了谢谢反而才亏欠的情感 —《爸爸妈妈》 Along with this song hehe here’s a note   Dad bought me a pair of new balance 880 that I’ve been aiming for a long time (at 30% off yassss) after we did a longer run in the aftn (6.97...

Nearly forgot about it I completed a run on Monday  Meaningful because it’s a run that dad and I could only dreamed of in the past  From the house to the gardens, to the city, to the highway, and back to the house  12.34km (interesting number there hehe) Even though it’s still way way way more to go for 21 and I really couldn’t continue much But I’m so so glad and proud of how much I’ve come since I first decided to run and push myself forward  真的  每一分努力 每一次決定 都可以帶來長遠的變化和進步 但無論如何 成果值得讓你高興 但最重要的是不能忘記 過程最重要 

Just some recent findings about myself from conversations - I am indeed idealistic  - my fear for gore and horror possibly comes from a combination of wild imagination + excessive empathy for characters 

看到十一月滿滿的行程 出奇地期待 覺得又是充實的一個月 但回想這幾個月匆匆忙忙 忙忙碌碌  我決定在十二月 好好靜下心來 回歸自己的寧靜 好好平平常常地寫稿 休息 和自己好好共處 不要瞎忙 嘗試自己主動自發地充實自己 嗯 不要為了忙而忙  休息 真的是為了走更長的路

你要一次次地提醒自己 你很好  真的

或許就是因為看透人生的不完美 所以更加珍惜單純的小美好

生而為人 拜託大家善良 既然我們永遠無法滿足每一個人的期待 那就關掉所有無謂的吵雜聲響  活成一個樣子就好 活成自己想要的樣子就好

NPC 解散了 會是我最後喜歡的男團嗎 歷經風霜 他們都變了  有的身上多了防衛的披風  有的成了懂得捍衛自己的刺蝟 變化是無奈的 分離是讓人可惜的 過去 回不去的過去  簡單 純真 美好 

Super packed weekend so thank goodness ya scripting day on Monday instead of meetings phew Met gen and Jon and fri night and found out that others thought we were living in a (happy) bubble that’s vastly different from them lol  But super glad I had gen with me in that truthfully very different world that I was in hehe And happy to still have her and Jon (that I only reconnected this year) in my post-biz life hahah  Had a half hour swim of 25 short laps in the morning w momma  Then watched joker after having a salty ramen for lunch lol And met LY, kim and Kim’s fiancée (eggcites for their wedding!!) at jewel for dinner at shake shack where LY and I failed to get any seats hahah   Can’t wait for kimcham’s wedding in a month’s time!!!  Speaking of which  Another dear dear friend is overseas now and will be engaged when she’s back  MEGAEGGCITES AND 激動 I realise I’m def gonna cry of 感動 at her wedding hahahah  Meeting Simi...

10days in a single city - just wow how likely are you to stay in the same hotel for so long yet walked so much and feel shag nearly every single day hahahah Essentially, thankful for this opportunity - call it work but we had loads of fun  Visited several places tourists normally wouldn’t come on their first or even multiple trips  Jogyesa temple tour, Running Man experience, Sports gaming games, Roller coasters at Lotte world, MBC theme park, Dae Jang Geum film set theme park, Lotte Mart shopping spree, Korea Royal Cuisine + Pansori performance (super ex though), Digital Media City (we met cute Edies!) and the broadcast stations mbc sbs cj e&t, etc), DMZ tour, Jjimbbang spa experience, Nami Island, Rail bike park, National Folk Village, National Folk Museum, night markets and the popular hanbok experience  Woohoo super fruitful w many many new experience - never would I think that I would be on a roller coaster (not to mention four at a go), going withou...