): 5 more days to eoys ): and i'm way behind my timetable ): gaga. these days have been funny, except for the maths test. oh and thanks zixuan, there isn't any cockroachlovesme.bs.com -.- i might not have failed, but it is certainly a not-good-enough grade. 16/30. and i'm freaked out by many of the undoable questions. and i can't seem to be able to concentrate and do my work just like how you're seeing this post being posted -.- >
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lihui says that she sleeps late to do more stuff, so i'm trying out it out, if it works :X OH. it's 12:49! maybe it means some luck (: wish me luck. Portfolio Chem File + content page Bio essay question History ( Stalin/Mao, undecided ) gaga, guess i'll just sleep half way. so, wish me luck :p wonder why, wonder why we drifted so far apart. that words seem to be formal, no more the last-times.
2J there's just some stuff i can't forget. somehow, i remembered how our class started off last year, in the aircon class that only 2J of year2 had. when xie lao shi was choosing the class committee, when the girls were happily supporting the idea of having many girls, when the guys were saying that it was unfair, but there was only, uh 4 guys. when everyone was there. and i remember how i liked to turn around to do my chinese compo, cause i seem to get more inspirations when i look at jiahuey and xintian. then i remembered how much i enjoyed sitting beside my best seating partner of the year, with the jinxings, and i remembered that there was a time when there's this speech thing and everyone went up to say the same starting, then we said and jinxed, which went up to seven, i think. and it was quite loud that people around us turned. (: hahas i suppose this was my best memory of the, no, that year. hello! best seating partner(: then i remembered walking with fiona and yij...
it's the mindset, i suppose. watched bang bang you're dead just now. and, thought about how the play reflects on our lives. trevor, josh, they are just the same, they are just us. someway, somehow, they are just our reflection. learnt alot through macbeth and bang bang you're dead. lives are just that simple. but greed, ambition, cravings, they change everything a life can be. i don't care if i wasted two hours on the film, but i learnt. it doesn't matter if it makes a difference on my LA essay marks, but i really learnt. anyone, anyone who bullies anyone in your life, may your guilty-conscience engulf your heart to make the bullying stop. if you can give someone some chance to change, to understand, to forgive, you give them a chance to be happy. it might be because P2 is bang bang, or that i respect the play alot, that i prefer to type the full title. BANG BANG YOU'RE DEAD.
i don't know why, don't know why, don't know why. i miss seeing your happy face out of a sudden. school's starting, eoys' coming, post-exam stuff approaching, so there's less time for slacking. and derrick and yoga will be missed out of my life till everything ends. it's the numbers again; (skip it) i saw 11:49 at the airport, then i saw 19:49 in the car, then i saw 20:49 at the foodcourt. o.o and lastly, my phone bill is back and it's number is xx49 O.O wow. and i just got the high cost bill this time ): i shall stop calling and learn the benefits of messaging ): gagaga ):
i'm not supposed to be here, supposed to be in the toilet, supposed to be on the piano chair, supposed to be somewhere else, not in front of the computer. i want to type in chinese, but this com can't ): i decided, i shall return to school tmr, to be hardworking instead of facing the com and slack my day through. gagagagaagagaga. i saw 08:49 today. and i saw many 21s today. i think i'm being observant of my surrounding these days. i read my archives and found myself weird, as in, gay and disgusting. note here, DONT you ever go click on my archives please, a thousand pleas just don't read anything in there. it's not about gayness, just stuff i really don't want anyone to know about. please. :D this is for everyone who is unhappy. hmmm, perhaps :) for liying and :) (rotate 90degrees) for lihui. wow (:
if you haven't move on, it doesn't show that you are weak. if you have moved, it merely shows that you are stronger, in a way. why is everyone pretending? like, pretending to be stupid, pretending to be smart, pretending to be close, pretending to be bonded... what's with all these pretence? an act to show that you're weak? an act to show that you're strong? an act to make everyone convince of a fact that you can't even convince yourself? it just won't stop, would it? sorry, didn't know what came over me, with all these sudden thoughts. i was happy just now, was. maybe i can go admire more of wangzi/yoga/derrick and smile, but it isn't working even though i just listened to his/their song(s).
no idea why i'm here. today (/tonight) is more prooductive than ytd. i'm still considering whether i should go for chem, like stuck with that witch for like 3 hours? sure die. during the three hours, i can't play with xintian (or witch will start staring -.-) i can't ball with guides (or witch will throw that ball into her potion -.-) i can't see 王子 & ㄚ頭 & 鬼鬼 & 敖犬 & 阿緯 (or witch will be mad cause they are wayyy better looking than her -.-) i can't do anything but to STARE at her ): (and get eyesore after that -.-) hey, witch can be anyone, so don't assume you know unless you're sure, and xt's should know who witch is (: i'm thinking, why have we drifted so much apart? and why have i stopped clicking what i had been clicking from jan-jun? everything changed. i don't know why all got Prince too(: i can't remember how being a sec1 was ): it feels that it had been long since i talked to esther, except for just. oh, i saw 07:49...
i'm seriously seeing 49 everywhere. 9:49pm 21:49 4946 (some carplate) 0.49 (words width thing) and it all happened in an hour plus WOW. and many more times throughout the months :P anyway had fun today with jenn ly lh and ee. i think i prefer vball now yay oh, and i found new loves. 王子&敖犬&鬼鬼! :D but i still dont like bbt xP