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loadssssssss happened this year - especially in the featured class of 6C11 of 2011 ;) i have so many things to thank many people for, and yet unable to get about it so i'll just have to try, even if i happen to leave some people/stuff out better some than none right ;) parents, teachers, friends, and everyone else who inspired me in a way or another :) and bearbear ;) for supporting me through the whole prelims and a levels period :) the greatest reward for this year would be discovering, or rather, realising, my love for fiction - drama, stories, theatre, lyrics, etc :) it's a late realisation during these few days but i find that this love for it summed up and shaped me into who i am today :) that said, i wanna thank all teachers for exposing me to so much more knowledge than i'd ever known @Ms Huda @Johnny @Mr Loh @Ms K @Mr Chiang @Ms Soh @Mr Koh @卢老师 @郑老师 and special thanks to 黄老师 for initiating the weekly 文学手札 that ignited my passion for writing and sharpen my sensitiv...

現實和興趣 兩者應如何擇其一？ For the first time in recent months, I'm truly considering the problem of my future. Which? Be rich and systematic, without living in a world of my own interest? Or live in fiction, stories, dramas, theater, but likely to remain poor and unstable? - which is the wiser choice?

早上到了寺廟去拜祭 看到了阿公的靈位，鼻頭酸酸的，想起小時候看到的出殯情景 我在想，是因為我還小，所以想得多嗎？ 大人們，你們怎能平靜地面對已過世的父親？ :(

今天，1400，我讀完了這一本書。 雖然讀了近一個月，但這書中的情節並不乏味，反而不斷地在我腦中縈繞。 我被撼動、被康南的遭遇刺得心痛、被事事難料的真實感到無奈， 「窗外」 雖然江雁容讓我感到親切，她的事跡讓我疼惜，但我不願如她，因為她的愛，雖然真摯深刻，但卻會動搖。 這是一本值得人們再三回味的書，而它以年輕的江雁容為主線，展示了青春的美，也展現了愛的不可分割、不可均分，一旦真愛了就不能忘的特徵。 這80000字，真實的觸動了我的心弦。

又回到了這裡 頭有點疼 但我的心 是平靜的 現在，再次進入江雁容的生活 她的21歲生活 :)

「憐」這字 好悲哀

我學會 過多的期待 只會造就更大的傷害 但我學不會的 卻也是不要有任何期待

城市中的喧囂 是城市人的成就 卻也是生活在城市中成長的人們最想逃避的 最後渴望的不就只是可以讓人安心休息的平靜

人之所以痛苦 是因為在追求錯誤的東西 －藍天尉 ≪犀利人妻≫

Out w my cutest friends today :) First at botanic gardens w Honhon ♥ then astons and bugis roaming w Lowwy ♥ Lastly, kinda off from this post, but just wanna tell pomene that I'll miss you more than what I ever thought I would, cause I just experienced it even before you leave, ♥.

quoting from linghong :) ‎"Go into the arts. I'm not kidding. The arts are not a way to make a living. They are a very human way of making life more bearable. Practicing an art, no matter how well or badly, is a way to make your soul grow, for heaven's sake. Sing in the shower. Dance to the radio. Tell stories. Write a poem to a friend, even a lousy poem. Do it as well as you possibly can. You will get an enormous reward. You will have created something.” ― Kurt Vonnegut ♥ just find that, this statement sums up what binds all arts people together :)

Made my 2012 planner ytd :)

「我的未來不是夢」 Heard it on 綜藝大國民 just now :) And the sight of playing in TIMEPIECE II blackout came to me :) Dhsge :)

詩人都歌頌十八歲，這是一個坐夢的年齡，我也有滿腦子可憐的夢，我說「可憐」，是因為這些夢真簡單，卻永不能實現… … 他們的小說，安安靜靜的，從從容容的看，不需要想有多少功課沒做，也不需要想考大學的事。 －江雁容 ≪窗外≫ 瓊瑤 著 看到這一篇，又發現自己正讀著小說，想起這一年18歲的自己。 我正是這樣度過我的18歲。 夢想 嗜好 卻被考大學的壓力逼著 但我比江雁容幸運，至少我喜歡這一年的課業和知識 也覺得自己的思想改變了不少 我的18歲，是多麼豐收的一年 :)

又回到了熟悉的地方 開始讀書吧

Felt soooooooooo bad in the morn But much better after lunch w mum :)

have been thinking if i have to close the blog in jan till the intern period is over o.o

On public bus with my dad and mum now :D - first time taking a bus w my dad :D he's so cute cause he doesnt knw how to tap the ez link card and grabs the handle while he's seated 

Just came back from the rural side of spore ... Yep. What a vast difference :O On the other hand :) Went riding w my dad this morn after dental and lunch :> Lovely :D

:) Grrrrrrrrrrr yangmuni missing for too long :( Hmpft Ang @.@

Lovely Moktard came over to help me w the cake for my parents' wedding anniversary ;) Miss the girls loads actually, especially the two that are in Korea and HK at this moment :) But thank goodness dear Moktard's ard along with the 'the thing that I gave the most now is time' sub, busy best actress huayingxzs, crazily busy 'I cfm w you again' Yanci that was insensitive hmpft and the idk what he's doing elf sam ._________. Missing estherhong though ...

如果這一天 我們都從世界上消失 －－－

不知道為甚麼 就是討厭這裡  我拼命地求救 又有誰能聽到我心中的吶喊 我想逃離 卻被無形的感情牽絆 我好想 好想 就這樣 消失

got the results :) im going to chij katong convent :) - a choice of yanci's and yanci is going to geylang methodist - a choice of mine hahaha surprising twist of events even though xiaowei is going to embark on this new journey on my own i shall brace myself for any obstacles and do my best :) till march next year, 全力以赴！:)

finished watching the second series of the original 还珠格格 :) brought back soooooooooo much memories of pri school :> and glad that these years of learning (esp h2 and h3 cll ;)) made me understand the dialogue so much better :D 當（还珠格格｜动力火车） 当山峰没有棱角的时候 当河水不在流 当时间停住 日月不分 当天地万物化为虚有 我还是不能和你分手 不能和你分手 你的温柔是我今生最大的守候 当太阳不在上升的时候 当地球不再转动 当春夏秋冬不再变换 当花草树木全部凋残 我还是不能和你分散 不能和你分散 你的笑容是我今生最大的眷恋 让我们红尘做伴活得潇潇洒洒 策马奔腾 共享人世繁华 对酒当歌 唱出心中喜悦 轰轰烈烈 把握青春年华

FINALLY BOUGHT IT BACK HOME :D

Went fr teaching interview today w Qianting and Jasmine in the same grp :) Was an experience of group interview and we were interviewed by DHS ex-principal 陳天福校長 :) 有種不自覺的熟悉感 也有種不曾相識的陌生感 :) Then went for a lunch and movie with clique girls except huayingying :) I especially like this picture tanyanci :D

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你化妝是為了呈現更好的自己，...還是偽裝自己？ ﹣阿緯

quoting a youtube user's comment on lollipop f's performance on 超級偶像 :) 一句話說出來可以令自己有優越感一整天 但卻可以傷害很多人一輩子 誰不知道他們不是最好 但是你有沒有親眼看見他們進步得更好？ 他們紅不是因為才藝真的很好 是因為他們的用心和對粉絲的真心 是很多大明星都沒有的。想不停腳踏著別人在網絡世界裡用鍵盤猛烈­攻擊就繼續吧 因為每個明星的辛苦都不及你們拿著鍵盤攻擊而博取那一點點的存在­感辛苦 - frankfranksuperman (youtube)

Thanks dear Moktard for accompanying me today even though she has alr shopped for the past week haha Finally cleared everything for prom tadaaaa :>

Going to watch Already Famous with my parents after dinner :) Shopped with the girls today :)

First meal after As - softshell crab bento at MOF with gr8(make it gr5 today) Thanks guys for coming out :) Tired out :| (PS after I published, I realised my blog looks diff... TADA the constant reminder post just expired ^^)

from 5 march: yesterday was a big day. i guess i'm too bad with words to type what i want to say but really, it's a bad time but you still have us around. it may sound stupid, it may even sound useless since we can't do anything but we're with you. and i think this overrides all the common phrases like "all the best", "jiayou", "it's gonna get better" cause we know, that it's a tough road out there. it certainly, was a great great wake up call. we can't change whatever that has been done but it can be a time that you do what you can to make it better next year, it will be our turn. and what would you like this post to be? screwed up? great success? or simply, i did my best. then again, really really proud of E4 even though i'm non-existent great brains he has :) the little talk ms ng gave us at the end of the day was certainly enlightening for me, at least. she really pointed out a fact that teachers and students ourselves a...

And some fan made this hahaha cute and skillful ;)

Chanced upon June and Ziying's fb :) 我覺得我們遺忘的人太多了 所以我想盡可能地想念 想念我還沒遺忘的你們

明天，12月2日，棒棒堂五週年，而我，考試終於結束，高中生活，真真正正地結束… 五年前，我不喜歡棒棒堂 四年前，我喜歡上棒棒堂 三年前，我超愛棒棒堂 兩年前，6個人的棒棒堂沒了、我哭慘了 一年前，LPF重新出發、被認可了 零年前，JPM開啟，6個人分開、卻都成功了 而明天… 棒棒堂五歲了！ 吼吼吼吼吼吼吼

It has been quite some time since i took a nap :) And that pretty much shows how long it has been since I studied for one whole day hehe :P

子曰：“不患无位，患所以立。不患莫己知，求为可知也。”

人家給你機會是人情 人家不給你機會是道理 ﹣李偉菘