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https://youtu.be/7zx1N8GvZgc 蔡康永的善意提醒： 「情商高的人 是在判斷說 這件事對我的意義是什麼 只要目標達成 所有的情緒都會消失不見」 「我們在每個人生階段 跟每個人生面向 都要摸索出我們最在乎的是什麼」 「我認為朋友圈好像你人生的櫥窗一樣 你在裡面佈置了一個你想要別人看見的自己 我唯一的建議是 不要讓它佔掉你太多的時間和精力 因為你最重要的是面對你自己 而不是面對那個櫥窗」 「你如果不勇敢的探索自己的話 你會不斷的陷入這個可怕的循環當中 只是一個虛幻的房子 然後要你押進三四十年的人生 去換一個最後不一定值得的東西」 「很多事情「應該」和「不應該」都是道聽途說 別人設定的「應該」是你永遠都做不完的 你要拒絕一些應該 老娘不甩這一套 「應該」就是你盲目相信它的時候 它好像存在 你一旦不相信它 它就不存在」 「探索自己其實很有趣 但也很累 搞清楚自己是什麼事情 比跟那些朋友唱歌喝酒 要重要的多」 「我們人就只有那麼有限的心力 一定要把它用在你最專注的事情上」 謝謝康永老師🙏
Family talk tonight at a weird timing of 1am in their office Mum started by questioning dad what hes doing and how things should change - context: dad hasn’t been getting enough rest everyday and has recently fell sick twice probably due to low immunity As it turns out, mum truly needed answers cause she felt demoralized from having zero sales this year Fear has made her pushed possible sales away time and again And her fear of words has been stopping her from reaching out and sending cold call emails Dad then revealed that his intention of getting me into the business is to help mum to build her customer base - which she couldn’t cause she fear writing Couldn’t help but feel amused that all the problems mum is facing Is all the problems I faced and still facing And she has been the one who kept encouraging me and pointing the way out to me 果然 有其母必有其女 To which she said she kept pushing me to do things she couldn’t - like getting a goo...
Dad had food poisoning yesterday and vomited And I suddenly realised how much we depend on him for everything, as well as how lost we two become without him 😪 他真的為這個家做了很多事 承擔很多責任和壓力 Daddy 謝謝你 😘 Went to sing k w jo today cause she took leave And did many new songs again - lol at how we always have new songs to sing even though we’ve been singing k like once every one or two months 蘇打綠//盧廣仲//毛不易//薛之謙//尤長靖//陳立農 🙌🙌🙌
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哭點低 但我是堅強的孩子 （順帶提及 《悲傷逆流成河》真的超悲涼 命運的不公 相愛但個性不相配 人言可畏的真實 人 真的 就是無止盡地在相愛相殺 而犧牲的 就是一個又一個的真實笑容） 奇葩說5 結束了 而最後一期的辯題 正中下懷 「我不合群，要不要改」 「死後不久，伴侶找到可以讓他更幸福的對象，要不要祝福」 Hi室友 也結束了 以為已經習慣了離別 看淡了情感 但原來心裡深處 還是惦記著曾經厭惡離別的孩子 哭得稀裡嘩啦的 就像十二十四歲 初遇別離的我一樣 奇妙的時光 打榜日記 咕瞪咕瞪banana 都結束了 大廠男孩回歸 滿滿的笑點 快樂的源泉 真的是夢回大廠 簡單無憂 有平凡純真的朋友一起胡鬧 真棒 看他們煮菜玩鬧（滑沙😂） 看他們聽歌唱歌 看他们互相吐槽整蛊 看他们相互帮忙鼓励 觀眾雖然不捨 但他們之間的情誼 不斷 兵分兩路 頂端相見 這兩個多月 讓我每個週末都樂得開花的節目 逐一結束了 好像提醒著我 是時候長更大了 雖然說 還有 完美的餐廳 和 姊姊的花店 但這段追綜藝的日子 莫名的快樂 簡單 純真 美好 像是大人生活中 走进一間賣甜甜圈的小店 孩子般地開心
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Last class of the year and it was awesome on a totally different aspect I always find that Writers are a really 悶騷 bunch of people, at least I definitely am Calm looking people with waves of emotions flowing in us every day and every moment Yet acting like we’re all chill and steady This course opened us up emotionally and physically Even though I still love to stick to my own spot and has issues raising my arms beyond certain levels But I would say it made me less self conscious and more willing to push the inner me outwards The music therapy is def sth I won’t forget From happy mornings, small towns, 原住民s, warfied, funeral/tombs, sparkles in forest nights etc The sadness that totally came from within the heart overwhelmed quite a number of us that we opened our eyes to see a number of teary faces At the end when we were resting w eyes closed, the coach said 謝謝妳這麼勇敢 現在就向來過你生命的他們好好地告別 Totally broke do...
some runs that i did recently time flew pasttttttt still remember updating the blog w a spam of 模范棒棒堂 videos in the past hahah momma's lunar bday was spent at long john's hahah pretty pretty picture of idol producer boys two caucasian kids were playing while i was working and another stranger chinese boy who loves chatting joined in soon later heh their interaction and acceptance of each other totally made me 姨母笑 peekaboo from a tuktukwei at work and i had a dinner w colleagues yesterday LOOK AT THE SASHIMI so thick i got jelat hahahaha and totally amazed by the eventful love life they all had lol
On course for these three days And a sentence from the coach struck me Context: Ci told me that I shld go exercise cause she thinks I’m feeling depressed. Recently clarified this matter w her cause I couldn’t understand how she got that vibe. And she said that I was spiraling downwards and a few of them felt the same abt me from the convo we shared. I was surprised, because I didn’t know they had such discussions privately, and also because no one looked like they had an issue while I was happy about having more deep conversations. Differences, indeed. But in any case, I had a question lingering in my head since ci told me all that - what exactly did I say that made them feel that way? I rmb casually mentioning about how jumping down from a hdb flat at lvl 10 (is Sam’s house) may not lead to death, but just that no? And I finally remembered the other line... today. Life feels like nothing because it starts and end at the same point - nothing. And ...
記憶力真的好差 所以我更要把心情記下 因為過陣子應該都會忘光了 雖然 我的稿沒寫完 明天又要九點上課 感觸最多的先開始吧 「Turning 18 未來無恙」 這是一部紀錄片 而正因為它真實 心中才會有一個揮之不去的感傷 一個未婚媽媽 在貧窮潦倒的生活中 被孩子真實地羈絆著 逃不開日復一日的苦惱 眼前所見的未來 期待感少於零 一個屢遭性侵的女同志和家暴受害者 愛媽媽 愛弟弟妹妹 卻忘了愛自己 女孩 你被這個世界傷害 你被家人和 你爱的人傷害 但錯不在你 你不需要向任何人道歉 也不需要任何人的原諒 你值得被更好的對待 另外兩部片 看完只能說： 心塞 「誰先愛上他的」 我好心疼劉三蓮 她的一句：全部都是假的嗎 一點點也沒有嗎？ 讓已哭成淚人的我瞬間淚崩 她付出了一切 換來的卻是一場空 不，她甚至失去了僅有的一切而成為負數 她被一個不敢面對社會輿論的男人騙了十多年 她在不被知會下成了他掩飾自己真實面的無辜犧牲品 結果 他找回了自己 卻害她曾經真實的回憶 蒙上最不堪的灰色 劉三蓮 好可憐 另外 我在不經意間講出一句話 才發現讓我非常難過的一點 是同志相愛卻不被視為正常 結果為了社會和家人的眼光而必須分開的真實現象 那一句：我不知道我們相愛，［媽媽］她為什麼會難過，但她就是會難過。 很痛，很無助，很無奈 而愛人離世 阿傑還得打通電話給劉三蓮告知 說明了即使兩人再相愛 在正式的法律規定面前 他們就是陌生人 之間就是必須有另一個人😭 感覺這個其實是用電視劇的寫作方法編寫而成 許多驚喜和意外 雙線發展和交叉 但也可能這是為了喜劇效果 而我 很吃這套 「Girl」 他想成為女芭蕾舞者 為了夢想 他選擇變性手術 她苦練幾小時 一跳再跳 但始終不一樣 始終不及其他女生 其實 她在極力變成女生的同時 她甚至不知道 自己是不是女生 是否喜歡男生...