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一直說不客氣不客氣的九把刀 說 努力的意義，是為了不遺憾，而非一定能獲得成功的保證。每個努力過後卻失敗的人，都該笑，而非回頭憎恨當初近乎愚直的堅持。這就是，戰士。 與九把刀的話毫無關聯， 只不過有個想法，是這幾天在腦海裡盤旋著的。 我或許沒有資格說這番話但我真的覺得 一個人若以語言來判定一個文學作品的好壞，連內容都不看， 那他並不是一個懂得文學的人。 當然，我不敢說我稱得上是個文人，或者說，一個懂得文學的人， 但我總覺得文學作品應以客觀角度欣賞，而不是以偏見判定它的好壞。 如果仍存在偏見，那你沒有資格批評。

HEHE reminded of the young primary school days when 完全娛樂 was broadcasted on channel u :D 王仁甫 and 張善為！

九把刀： 我覺得我們人啊 不是透過一路上獲得很多東西才成長的 而是一路失去很多重要的東西我們才成長 所以其實我們人會不停不停在回憶說 我們到底失去甚麼 我們到底有哪些遺憾 所以我們以後再也不想要這麼遺憾了 所以很多父母告訴他小孩子 就是你要怎麼做要怎麼做 就是想要自己的遺憾不要發生在小孩子的身上 但其實他們都忘記一件事情 小孩子終究還是要 經過痛苦的成長 有些道理是你沒有付出代價 你永遠都只是一句話 它永遠都不會 成為你生命的一部分

LOLLIPOP-F 電司！ with lolly!

讀完了「上蒼選了妳」 淚滴下了不少 疼惜她的難受也增添了不少 但我們的感受與她的疼痛 根本沒的比… 相信阿中所說服自己的，她被燒傷，是有原因的 因為不能讓時間倒轉 因為痛還在、癢還在 疤痕也不會憑空消失 他們沒有辦法將事件當成它不曾發生 只剩下面對的選擇 但她仍慶幸 她有任爸任媽和容萱 hebe ella 和阿中 換成別人 他們的遭遇或許更糟 沒有人希望悲劇的發生 但既然發生了 傷者只能接受 找尋各種理由逼迫自己接受 只有這樣 他們才能夠正視問題 面對現實 一通經歷接下來長期的苦痛 我們不是她 也不是她們 所以我們只能為她祈福 讓她的悲劇比更有意義還更有意義。 對我而言，除了那些描述她灼傷的傷口，皮膚的撕裂慘狀，難言心中的憤怒，和痛不欲生的哀號，這是書中最令我難過的一章 十二月 26, 2010 那是她嗎 很冒昧地提出了要去探望selina的要求　任爸答應了　 用他那充滿禮數又朝氣的聲音 前兩天也在電話裡聽到selina的聲音　和任爸一樣的充滿元氣 讓人覺得世界沒變　任爸沒變　selina也沒變　 十一點 我跟李仁準時出現在燒燙傷加護病房門口　 抱著畫了眉毛的小龍　想進去耍寶給nana看　讓他開心 不料病房禁止六歲以下兒童進入　只好讓保母帶開　 我和李仁由任媽帶領　先在入口處穿上防塵鞋套　隔離衣和隔離帽 經過一間間的病房　床上坐著都是一個個包著像木乃伊的病患 阿彌陀佛 最後　進入了她的病房　 我隨著任媽大步踏入　一進門　我已經調適好心情 無論如何　不能露出驚訝眼神　也不許哭　 我看見她了　一個坐在床上頭髮像個阿兵哥的小女孩　 那是她嗎 　 報上不是說　她的臉沒事嗎 那麼　那一塊紅一塊黃還有一些好像從焦黑退下的棕色　是怎麼回事　 李仁站在門口進來的一步　靜靜的站著　 我不能不說話　趕緊拿出一盒繽紛炫麗的各色蛋糕　擺在她的床上　 故作輕鬆地說這些那些都很好吃喔　 她熟悉的聲音說　妳好像我的聖誕老公公喔 我忍不住擁抱她　妳還好嗎　我說 任媽在一旁紅了眼眶　nana也是 她的兩隻手臂兩條腿　都穿上了那種肉色的緊身衣 在回家的路上　老公問我　妳看到緊身衣仍然有血渍嗎 我看到了　當然看到了 我還看到她頭皮裡的幾道縫線 她說　取了兩塊頭皮來補腳皮 她說　現在好很多了 一開始每天發高燒　劇痛難忍得用嗎啡　整日昏迷　意識不清 任爸任媽整夜守候　她自己也不記得說了什麼　睡了多久 現...

劉心恬 給你看的！ 一直說不客氣不客氣的九把刀 說 剛剛跟女孩去看了五月天的演唱會電影，我還蠻喜歡第二段跟第三段小劇情的部分，孔導的攝影真的很強，色彩超文藝的我很喜歡 另外，我又重新體會了一次阿信寫詞的功力，真的，很有穿透力，很希望他能拿下金曲獎最佳作詞人啊！

我是個矛盾的人 一個人的時候 我會害怕 膽怯 害臊 害怕 對甚麼人都不想發出一言一語 但與眾人在一塊的時候 我會厭煩 羞澀 克制 不悅 只想靜靜地在一旁 誰也不理 與一群人相處時 我會想著另一組人 與另一組一塊時 我的心又會跑到另一群人那 與人少聯絡時 我會想與他們聯繫上 但一旦開始溝通 卻又會因說得多而嫌煩 我想，我只是個不懂得知足的人罷了…

每一天 我們都不停地在人生的道路上遊走 有時是漫無目的 有時卻會不自覺地往下走 卻發現 這下斜坡 走不完 走不盡 走到最後 只剩遍體鱗傷的身軀 讀著「上蒼選了你」，我可依昔記得那段混亂的日子 混亂的報道 亂成一團的醫院景色 面容憔悴的任爸和受訪者 即使不身立其境 但只要是關心Selina的人 都會為她擔憂 為她疼惜… 我發現了有色眼鏡的可恥 但更是發現了我之前的不恥

有時候，友情就如同付出的對待關係。 但有時，爭吵也是因為付出，為自己自認為的額外付出。 我慶幸，我還有願意付出的時候 ｢我總是一個人在練習一個人」又在播放中

楊沐霓生日快樂

廖俊傑0925:D

那些年的劇照/劇情 獻給我們這一群在青春記憶中正讀著書的我們： 柯景騰：「……讀書真的很煩。」 沈佳宜：「所以會念書的人很厲害啊！」 「我敢跟妳賭，十年後，我連log是什麼都忘了，照樣活得很好。」 「嗯。」 「妳不相信？」 「相信啊。」 「相信還那麼用功讀書！」 「人生本來就有很多事，是徒勞無功的啊。」 最後附上： 不像考卷，所有複雜困難的問題都能得到一個解答， 真實人生裡，有些事永遠也得不到答案。 全摘自「那些年 我們一起追的女孩」:D

子曰：“… 人不知，而不愠，不亦君子乎？” 即使明白其中的意藴，但要做到真的好難。 或許，這也是為甚麼君子難能可貴吧…

DISCIPLINE IS CHOOSING WHAT YOU WANT NOW AND WHAT YOU WANT MOST. - Kimberley Cham the great  I'm missing kimcham now and I realised she has became quite E-Lit-ish hehe fridayyyyyy chammy :) 友，難以維持， 但只有堅持當前的相信，才能讓友情維持下去 Feels really uncertain about fri&mon :( but what's done cannot be undone. An crap my email got hijacked and suspended :/

Trying out a new photo app HEHE Kay let's go back to Confucianism 

ITS COMINGGGGG 曹雞巴曹國勝莊敖犬莊濠全 ｢那些年 我們一起追的女孩」 NC16 though hehe thank goodness I'm 18 HEHE:D 男孩以電影打造了時光機 只為了再一次與女孩相遇 ﹣導演/作者 九把刀 柯景騰 is so sweeeeeeeet

Hehe just woke up and I'm going out for a runnnnnnn I think it has been super long since I last did anything healthy (last run was during pe gosh) And last self initiated run was term 3 week 3 or 4 with muni Lol this is so bad for health Hoope I'm gonna stick to my plans and successfully get out of the house for some healthy exercise with my dad:D 『超屌』 電司電司電司電司電司

最新mv 還有LOLLY會出現在mv裡面 LOLLY好可愛

Not again ._. who wants to copy them?  And most chinese artists are trying to shake off kpop image as much as possible so why do the fans keep linking them up and shout COPY COPY everywhere on the net? 請尊重華語音樂和演繹工作者的創作！

My phone's wallpaper :D

i wonder whats the big occasion yesterday lol anywayyyyys im on my com! :D for today since all the core subjects are done :) woke up early to study for cll but fell asleep while studying -faints- but the point is, I WON A POSTER FROM 933 :D HEHE :B it has bosco wong, kevin cheng, ron ng and moses chan :D and i saw like 3 of them the night before - ron ng at 10 :D liwen! & kevin cheng and moses chan at 11 fighting over the girl haha and bosco during jiahaoyueyuan like a month back HEHE :D though i have to say i didnt plan to get the poster or what cause i messaged simply for fun :D anwanwanw had cll :) one of the better papers for this prelims :) and surprisingly, as i reviewed my performance, history paper was the one that i pretty much did all i could and its certainly one of my best set of essays (though its prob a C or D) and in fact i could feel improvement in most of my papers :) (though its probably the issue about failing most papers in term 3 ._.) just that econs..... it fa...

LOLLIPOP F - DANCE here here here :D Heard 威廉's improvement! Though i do have to admit that he's still not at the standards of a professional singer But he reallllllllllly improved alot, not to mention his dance  Hehe LOLLIPOP F - coming soon :D 20/10/11 LOLLIPOP F 以 DANCE 「電司」一決勝負:D ... Why does it feel like a competition? Hahaha debt matter, I just hope their full album doesn't disappoint us and themselves ... And gain rave reviews again cause 爬得高難，爬得更高更難 LOLLIPOP F 帶著棒棒堂的精神，GO！  Photo from 威廉

我與≪茶館≫之戰… 終於結束了… 而我戰敗了… 呵呵 … 若以老舍的幽默性語言來解釋，這是諷刺的笑，如王利發自掉時地笑，它預示著死亡… …開玩笑的 I think my mind isn't functioning in the right state Most of the words are as it is now due to apple's function to autocorrect ... Which troubles me at times, but a great help now apparently. In any case, its been a bad studies day cause I spent too much time slacking and watching tv/YouTube such that I only completed some parts of 茶馆 Thinking of making it up now but gosh my eyes are closing :( But if I give up now... Tmr's going to be hell with 13 poems gosh 周杰倫 on air now nubbad :) Anyway, there's a positive side abt tmr :) Lollipop F's new song is going to be broadcasted:D DANCE:) otherwise called 電司 by 莊濠全 Right, I think I'm going to sleep now haha And friends who happen to read this, I'm sorry for not replying msges today -bows- Idk why just didn't felt like replying :/ This must be your faces  haha But I'll get back to yall soon:) Latest thurs ...

沒有人在等著一個人 一個人在等著沒有人 沒有人在等著沒有人 林宥嘉 「我總是一個人在練習一個人」 

不知道是為了甚麼理由，我感到些許慶幸，我是在閱讀了「那些年我們一起追的女孩」的小說後才去看電影（雖然還沒看._.） 但它將在11月10日上映… 我只盼望，它會撐到兩個星期，讓我能在考試期最忙碌的那兩個星期後較為放心地觀看:) 但即使最終還是不能在電影院看，我還是會去賣DVD，因為這是第一本讓我感動的小說，也是我最喜歡的作家的青春記載 现在，飞回≪茶馆≫...

Low Xin Tian has became my saviour for this morning woohoo This is an exaggeration hahaha Back to econs! ... And at 514, I'm saying that I didn't complete it sadfacedz But it's okay :) More (self)practices to come to make up for this failed time management Jiayou!:)

To A LEVELS. 

One more thing, if I'm going to score more than 60 tmr for paper 2, Low Xin Tian, you're in for a treat But really, im filled with gratitude hahaha but i must say, I have yet to win the battle with correlation, (and probably gonna stop doing it and fight it again after prelims) But the rest of the stats are roughly on track (I hope ) All thanks to you!:) (and my home tutor too hehe) Shout out to Honhon (though she shld be mugging now) BREAK YOUR LEG AND USE THE BROKEN LIMBS TO WHIP AND PWN THE GREAT ENEMY STATS WE WATER TOFU CAN DO IT And everyone else, My stats is really bad (prob pure math is on the decline too) so please don't overestimate ongxiaowei the cool kid hehehe JIAYOU FRIENDS ALL FRIENDS  (I like the iPhone smileys, they are chubby and thus similar to my face hahaha)

一直說不客氣不客氣的九把刀 說 一邊搜集著網路上的貧病孤苦資料，研究著資料背後的辛酸與無奈，漸漸的，我覺得可以不計較的事情太多了。我當然是一個幸運的人，這句話，我願意重複無數次。 九把刀：“人生就是不停地戰鬥” （沒有人有事）大家加油！ A sudden thought of estherhong

And my favorite DJ mary's on air now!:D (Kay this was yesterday at 10pm haha) I dislike how they put lollipop f down :( Though lollipop f may not mind cause it's after all a Korean variety show But I don't think it's appropriate to show how popular suju is as compared to their supposedly invited overseas guests With the improvement in the Chinese entertainment industry, They'll realize that chinese artists are on par with the Koreans (or probably even better). In which case, it seems like Kpop are going on a trend like cpop in the past hmm Anyway, I find it really comforting to see how so many Chinese artists/singers are standing up for cpop upon leehom's call incl OAOA:)

「福满人间｣ is on air! (@ 9:06pm!) Reminds me of my childhood that was spent with 周初明 and 陈毓芸 in the show!:) I love this show!:D And there's "thank you" at the end haha loves loves I think there's gonna be more on radio cause it's「坤hua1自选歌曲－电视连续剧｣ “偶尔难免不如意 也没什么值得生气” -by 梦飞船 「天天好心情」 Haha singapore drama series have cheerful songs lol 郭淑贤：一切的不快乐 就让他过去 And and and 为明天 for 还有明天 I have the 片头 in my phone hehe 沉默的羔羊 by 趙傳 for 双天至尊I :D I followed the whole of 3 series yea and love the show and song! 迷路兵 sang it during superband too! And 出路 by 動力火車 for ≪出路≫！ Another of my favorite classic channel 8 dramas with all the now 30s / 40s but then 20s actor and actresses like taypinghui and yvonnelim and 李锦梅！ 漂洋过海 我吃得起苦 相信天无绝人之路 …… 日子多坎坷 命运有变数 只盼久旱逢甘露 And I realized i watched many many taypinghui shows hehe And xieshaoguang chenhanwei fannwong christopherlee zoetay linanxing etc etc etc All my childhood memories hehe cheered me up aloooot thanks kunhua!

I. Feel. So. Stupid. :( And I became a tofu :( Why is it that everyone else gets it so easily but I cant do this bloody thing:( Even the rest is screwing up now, probably because I lost confidence now grrrrrr This is such a discouraging post No, shouldn't let myself feel down at this time :( Not that I actually feel smarter or happier with this but oh well, at least it's here ... :( Hehe I actually do feel happier after looking at it :B

I wanna watch! But can't access the link:( Shall wait for someone to upload it with subs! LOLLIPOP F DANCE :D

Hahaha my new studying partner - BEARBEAR

Jealous cause lowwy watched the movie but then again LOLLIPOP F'S NEW SONG - DANCE IS COMING OUT SOOOOOOOON :D:D 9.21 IMMA WAITING! :D And their performance on star king is coming out tmr ;) LOLLIPOP棒棒堂！

Still can't get over the fact that I may have written an essay that doesn't fall into 抒情文 or 记叙文 I think i was too engrossed till I forgot that it was an exam, and not a blogpost... Gosh, what was I thinking?:/ 曾經自以為可犧牲一切的感情， 如今卻成了可有可無的回憶， 和毫無價值的紀念品。 -自：考試中寫的忘我而沒發現可能已經離題了的我 (edited) Grrrrrr and got back cll mock exam Failed all except for a 10/20 小说 paper. And i have not figured out why I'm doing so badly in cll when the exam's next week:/ Why why why? (Lol I'm reminded of 祖爸 from 家好月圓 ._.) And math gosh math WHAT THE HELL IS T??? :( Read the school notes, read the notes from assessment book, and still haven figured out what T means and how I shld go about using it :( ... And so I'm stuck. And LOW XIN TIAN 對不起 SORRY FOR BEING SO SUPER EVIL I FEEL DAMN GUILTY :( SORRRRRRY :( but hope tonight's still gonna be your best night :) ... Sorry!!!

I wonder what kind of person I am at times And why is it that I'm so good at hallucinating and entertaining extreme negative possibilities Haha cll paper 1's over Yi lun wen, not attempted again...

History paper. I went for it. And completed it :) Though I have to admit I'm not up to an A or even anywhere near a B, but I can feel that tiny weeny bit of improvement :) Only, truly just hoping that I haven't let tchers down again:) Then again, A for math flew to the skies and I wonder if it'll be back :( I truly spent time (most of the hols actually) doing math but yet I ended up with >20marks of uncertainties and questions that idk how to do. I wasnt badly affected or what at that time cause I know there's history to handle but naturally felt the disappointment everyone was talking about during cts:/ idk how the paper 2's gonna turn out especially since I'm totally unskilled at hypo sampling and regression(especially) but then again, That's for the weekend to worry about. Right now, 古文、 议论文... These shld be the concerns of mine now. And an interesting fact, The econs dept took 30mins to collect the papers; Math dept took 15mins :) Proba...

Screwed. It. Up. With 15 mins of panic. Tmr. How. Idk. Worth? Or not? No choice. Just do it. And dont give up. :)

Not now, then when? I'm pushing myself using this gosh wasted a few hours today but I'll be more determined from now on!:) Glad that I have this outlet :) 廖俊傑 他也笑得如此狼狈 会见面那么多要让心儿随他哀思遍野 无边的思念 无际的黑夜 你早已不在身边 噢 我记得我们分开了 就不要再吵了 只要你答应我你会过得好就好了 你说过 那不过就是一场太美丽的梦 至少我们真的爱过

Hehehehe today's the last teachers' day that we are gonna have :) And it was suppperrrrrrb:D Especially with the teachers skit (6c11's johnnybaby rofl :D) and all their encouragements (ms hudaaaaaaa and all her weekly consultations ) And our angry bird mr loh, history and cll teachers :D Awwwwww :) And I came to realize the fond memories we have of them today:) Quoting Angela, Who was the person that spent 1hr + teaching us so patiently and nicely when you can't even differentiate big X small x????? (referring to muni lol) It's mr loh. Who is the one that actually make you realise that you duno multiplier and [comparative advantage]? Mr wu. Who is the one who patiently guided along each and every one of us and came to school despite having a swollen and bleedy gum and an operation the previous day? [and met me for consultation on her birthday, didn't give up on her ridiculously badly doing humanities student and suggested a weekly meeting with m...