在死亡面前 我们都如此脆弱 《麻醉风暴2》EP3 「惟愉： 這是我在約旦的最後一天，明天會啟程去瑞士。頭上的縫線昨天拆了，傷口癒合的很快，從爆炸發生到今天已經十天了。 十天前，我們在醫療站內被緊急撤離，說是有炸彈，Basem正在縫合一個傷患，我們先被衛兵拉出走廊外，阿里在我身旁，看著我大叫：foot ball！他掙脫一個衛兵往診療間跑，我差一點點就抓到他了，但是沒有。他跑得好快。我也往前跑。他進到診療間內不到三秒，就爆炸了，我當場暈厥。Brain和阿里都在裡面。 上次給你寫信，是八個月前了。太多死亡了，惟愉，太多了。這次卻臨在己身。暈厥前的短暫時分，血幾乎浸滿了我的雙眼。血紅色的，就是天天從我們身邊手中經過的傷患的視野。 在死亡面前，我是如此赤裸，一無所有 。今天清晨，清真寺塔頂的廣播器響起，開始傳遍全城的經文廣播。雖然看不見，但你知道，隔著厚厚的一無裝飾的泥土牆，這個城市，整個國家你認識的不認識的人們都跪了下來，而如此如此，已千百年了。 我無法停止的哭了，牽動了前額的傷口疼痛。我也跪了下來。我的名字，我的時間並不重要，我和他們並沒有不同。我跪下來為了Basem祈禱，為了阿里祈禱，為了所有已逝的生命而祈禱，為了活著的我們祈禱，為了你祈禱。 我是如此的思念你。爆炸後，隔天我在安曼的醫院醒來，從來沒有如此強烈的渴望希望你在我身邊，讓我能夠看看你，握握你的手。 但在今晨的禱文中，那渴望希冀緩緩的隨著淚水滑下，滴落黃土，漸漸緩去消失了。 如果再也見不到你，沒有你的消息也沒有關係了。因為我和你並沒有不同，我們之間的距離在心念裡不過一瞬。 你一直在這裡。 給你我所有的祝福。 政勳 2016/7/21」
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放不下的活著
半夜改著稿 電台突然播了這首歌 我無意間被歌詞帶入了情境 認真了數秒鐘 突然 思念侵蚀内心 好一段時間沒湧上的心痛 顿时将我覆盖 虽然痛，虽然又哭了（哭这么几分钟比我写几小时的稿还累） 可是这是因为您曾经给过我那么多的爱 让我幸福地想念您了 阿嬤，爱你哦 ❤️
Met Jovina - and our meal plans always change at the last minute lol Proud that I dragged myself to meet her even though I was feeling sick w sore throat Ended up trying to nap at the Orchard library - and failed - but found a lot of Chinese books there Then had tomyum pasta and Starbucks cake - treat from jo's boss' starbucks card hehe Met LY and Kim after a Long Long while at City Hall Lol at my pretty sharp chin - how did it come about when my reflection still looks relatively hexagon now Had this Korean Mexican food and lady m hehe And chanced upon hon last sat when I went walking/jogging w my parents hehehehe While I only did 3.3km by myself I surprisingly did 5 + 2km w the girls last week Angela can run damn well and fast to our surprise hahaha While Mok ran w us in her dreams and join for lunch after lol Then I went back to rush 2eps in 3 days - new record fr me hahah (ended up cause boss forgot that I was supposed to have 2 more days to edit other eps ...
今天的心情不好 耍了一點脾氣 可是沒有什麼 是craving解決不了的 Pissed off by a number of things - myself included fr making dumbass mistakes in the scripts Also that Recognising the inherent flaws within the system - which causes shit results and yet not within our capacity to change No wonder people say ignorance is bliss It truly is Since I used to be a clueless optimistic girl Structure - where exactly is the structure in our shows?!?!?!
Work perks
Filming has wrapped for the alien show so dear producer boss treated all to BBQ at her house :) Her dog damn cuteeeeee hehe New show press conference w VR 360 music video hehe quite cool ^^ Worked on it since Feb - can't believe we have been writing scripts for the same characters for so long hehe Felt stuck for a period of time especially in the ep70s but so glad we got over it and are reaching the final lap ^^ No idea how the audience will react to this show but we had certainly had quite a bit of fun doing it ^^ Went on cruise for research hehe I'm totally redundant there cause I didn't write anything fr the cruise episodes So I turned up looking Super relaxed that the bosses said 你真的是上邮轮去玩hor haha
We were talking abt the show yesterday over BBQ And while I gave my colleague thumbs up for the lines he wrote (which turns out to be suggestions from the bosses but overall still 👍 Another colleague told me that a line she remembers clearly was "都是你不够爱孩子 她才会选择离开" cause she found it heartbreaking 💔 And I immediately said 我的! 🙋 hehe proud proud 😁 Of all the things that were changed and edited, I'm so glad this line survived the cut 💕 " 入 心 " 果然没错