1921

 Several other things happened since the last update  - and one discovery about myself is that...  I’ve been quite a happy kid this year  Such that I couldn’t think of an answer when someone asked when was the last time I cried  Like I could because I’m a crybaby so I cry every other day because of things I read or watch  But there wasn’t anything horrible that happened to me personally (thank goodness) And I asked mama to which she also agrees that I’ve been quite happy this year  Which makes me wonder why exactly - was it because I didn’t have much on my plate such that I wasn’t stressed  Or because I didn’t have to be involved in much social interactions this year due to all the stayhome restrictions  Or because I’ve gotten more at ease with myself and learnt to care only about what’s impt  Or am I in such a state of denial that I’m oblivious to many things that I shld be concerned about  In any case  Here’s a mental note to...

 努力是最值得做 却最不值得提的事 每个人都很努力 你努力了却达不到成果 不是意味着你不够努力 就是表明你不够天分和能力

 I like the feeling of steeping out of my comfort zone  Volunteered (finally!!) for four saturdays and felt so purposeful after them (even tho I nap right away as I rlly cmi after waking up at 730 for the 830am session (thank goodness it’s so near the house and fr dad’s prompt assistance when I missed the bus and was about to be late hahah I like the youthful vibes - they are possibly 5-9years younger I cry - and how straightforward some can be haha But what I love most was how all their hearts eventually became sincere about helping  Evident from how many complained abt being unable to cope at the first session  To the third session when I was and the fourth session when another girl was upset about failing / not giving enough attention to our seniors because we had to juggle two at one go  And the sharing at the end when everyone talks about how much they enjoyed being in the seniors company and how much closer they’ve become over the course of 4 weeks  T...