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夢到阿嬤的手指有問題（就是那種指甲插進手指肉）而到醫院就醫 當時只有我和阿嬤 她很清醒，也知道她害怕動到手指的痛 我抱著她、安撫她 我們說著笑著 以為醫生來了 她很害怕 我繼續陪著她 告訴她沒事 痛可以握緊我的手 她怕得把毛巾往臉上蓋 是逗趣的一個畫面 醫生真的來除去令她疼痛的指甲 她的孩子們要到了 我抱著她 也替她害怕著 ... ... 然後我醒過來了 可悲的是 我只會在夢中無顧忌地照顧她

can't get in the mood damn :/ go back to books after this! 被馴服的象　詞：小Ｓ　曲：蔡健雅 到底要笑得多虛偽　才能夠融入這世界 每個人的臉上都像是貼了張一樣的假面 想不起我在做什麼　想不起我在想什麼 想不起靈魂深處　到底發生了什麼 迷霧 迷霧 在迷霧　我驚覺自己在原地踏步 到底是誰把我心矇住　不想再糊塗 迷路 迷路 迷了路　我就徹底被這團迷霧困住 誰能夠指引我一條路　帶我走上正途 裝不出融入的態度　空氣裡充斥著虛無 說什麼都掩飾不了我這局外人的侷促 想不通自己怎麼了　想不通世界怎麼了 想不通心靈深處　到底變成什麼了 掌聲 若需要掌聲　只要你願當被馴服的象 這舞台你就可以上　榮耀 勝過被嘲笑  所以拋開自尊　咬緊牙根硬撐 要融入世界真的就得拋開自己裝得虛偽嗎？

even though i'm not paying much attention to my SS exam, which is tmr and I have yet to really commence my revision, i really like how the polscience ppl work their brains ard issues and their passion for societal issues i thought i was concerned enough but totally pales in comparison to theirs artsy brains :')

just realized.... this page has more chinese than english these days hahahaha guess i grew much more comfortable w expressing myself in chinese :) anw english posts often end up ... like a ranting kid haha just completed one thing on 28Nov (11pm) that brings me closer to where i wanna be :) 寫完了我今生第一篇完整（並像樣－至少對我而言）的歌詞－《虧欠》！ alright, back to dsc gogogo!

一個我們都沒有辦法學會的 就是人生 一樣我們都沒有辦法預備的 就是未知 一個沒有人能夠教會自己的 就是 怎麼做好自己的本分和責任 包括怎麼當父母。 (but my parents are as great as i can ever ask for, if only others are as well :/) 棒棒堂－我們之間 On Air :)

在933聽到這首歌 覺得故事中主角應該很矛盾 是真的被傷透了 但因為愛而希望她是幸福的 可是還是難掩無奈和痛 作詞：姚若龍 "你們要快樂 要天長地久 你們沒有錯 愛是自由 走出這扇門後 至少我還有遼闊 你們要快樂 要緊緊牽手 你們不幸福 我會難過 成全最愛的人 不是為了看著她寂寞 過去曾讓你笑得很甜 不代表有權利要妳糾結 雖然遺憾愛情也有它的季節 風不能吹 就做最瀟灑的落葉🍂"

昨天是阿嬤的生日 是個值得慶祝的一天 但在幾個時候 淚水不停湧上來 只能說 我真的很深刻很深刻地感受到 物是人非今時不同往日的殘酷 大概不能奢望復原 但只求能好好的舒服的不痛的 同時我也想到發現到 原來以前的我 就是在您的呵護保護下成長 有您的照顧，那才是家 阿嬤， 遲來的一聲 生日快樂 ：） 題外，爺爺問有關於獎學金的事 有可能多想了， 但總覺得那是他希望能照顧我的一種方式 謝謝爺爺 :)

chanced upon this video and nostalgic much hehe :) 三立偶像劇 片頭片尾曲 有人說：“真的是只屬於80初共同的記憶” (80初=1990-1995) 沒有錯:D 薰衣草》MVP》海豚灣戀人》西街少年》雪天使》紫禁之巔》天國的嫁衣》格鬥天王》王子變青蛙》綠光森林》愛情魔髮師》微笑PASTA woohoo 這就是我童年的一大部份 :D 有你的回憶嗎？:)

道不同不相為謀

"一起把華人音樂做得更好"－何韻詩 在韓風吹起，華語音樂不受到往日支持的時代 還是有著一群為華人音樂努力的歌手們 慶幸我沒有被韓風吹走 慶幸我仍然愛華人音樂 更慶幸華人音樂已經變得越來越好 在商業化的頹廢時代後 華人音樂重新以清新的高質音樂再次慢慢崛起 :) hahah on a side note, getting overly emotional hahaha feel so touched by Derrick's win at SHA2013! especially when the person said from Superstar (Y) memories flooded and super touched when D thanked the staff that accompanied him since he debuted :D woohoo 何维健!!! :D

To grow up and live like a normal person, is undoubtedly a fortune not all can enjoy. I'm glad, and I probably can no longer ask for more, that I am here right now, just being who I already am. "這個人生，我試著清醒，卻總在恍惚。"

如果人生能永遠像這時刻一樣地開心快樂， 該多好。 應該是值得慶祝的事， 卻因為錯的時間，錯的人生階段， 變成了大家的憂慮和擔憂。

here a little gift from the best gift i earned from flag - jiayan haha we may not be the closest friend but i'm so glad to have someone who understands my introverted nature and often try to help me get out of my confused and conflicted inner self hahah anw thanks for this little gift to end my sem1! :) sem1 finally comes to an end, with the conclusion of ALL projects (mkt2401b, ssa2209, acc2002, bsp2001, dsc2008) pats back haha now to mugging for finals xiaowei don't stop don't stop! ah and glad that i met so many ppl today from wentian/mayping, to szuk/marv/hh/jolene/jinny/noelyn/jordan in fact even more ppl this week than the whole sem haha nice seeing them all before they all fly off fr exchange haha a nice end to the sem ;) 隨想

Even though this post was on 15nov, But the photo on the bottom left was taken at 14 Nov 11:14pm! (Y) In summary, the day was waiting fr each other till aftn > dintaifung@JEM > shop ard > informed abt internship > Jcube > buffet town (yumyum esp seafood & belgium waffles!) > walk ard Raffles city > home for gongxinji > durian cake! Hehe Happy birthday dear mummy! You're the best mum I can ever ask for And thank you so much for all that you have done for me, for dad, and for the family ❤ We are different in several ways, but we are similar in so many other ways Love how we are so close like no other mother and daughter and hope we can stay this way, or even better and closer Hehe it's so adorable seeing how my mum got even happier than me when I told her I got the internship Glad it made your special day better, and lovely that it became an additional gift (of seeing your daughter accomplish another challenge) for your bday hehe Love yo...

Xiaowei is a WDA intern for dec!! YAY ^^ :D Hehehe glad I got the opportunity Kept thinking abt what I shld do it I don't get it heh Yayyyyyy!!! :D Mama's bday - such a lucky day hehe The day was down cause it started off on a bad note Glad news of my internship cheered the whole family up and we are on our way to buffet town wheeeeee :D

說話時，真的不需太多暗示 聽話時，也同樣無需過多解讀 not in the mood to study noooo :( but anw mama's bday tmr  hehe durian cake + buffettown (Y) and had my internship interview todayyyyy hehe hope it went well  like how my idea coincides with their  but sigh let's just see how it goes  anw 祝福四爺若曦!  

First 8km!!! :D But I went slow so it's an hour for 8km Haha but good start! More energetic for work now (I hope) hehe yay! :D

朋友 是不分你我的兩個個體 是惺惺相惜的兩個靈魂 是守護身旁的兩個騎士 是一份二合為一的奇幻旅程😋

when i received my sodagreen's 秋.故事 , i said i'm gonna read it in november... and time flew pass haha i finally started reading it! :D read a few selected parts cause... well, i'm suppose to be doing econs/marketing and this caught my attention :) 青峰談《獨處的時候》的創作: 我們或許常常都像這樣，獨處的時候，想得特別多，特別深，特別孤單，拿出手機，想跟誰說說心事，卻翻遍電話簿，撥不出一個號碼。好希望誰能在身邊，又好害怕誰出現在身邊；心裡有話，想有人聽見，可是講了以後，又有點害羞。獨處的時候，那麼百轉千迴，我們需要獨處，卻有時候也難以描绘獨處。所以，害怕獨處或享受獨處的時候，希望這首歌，能陪陪你。 道出了我（們）在獨處的時候的心聲 ... :)