1921

Some updates from the past month(s) Clearly using photos to remind me what happened while I was lazy to type my diary  Gonggong was hospitalised twice - once before my taiwan trip and one after  I literally checked in to the hospital before and after the trip  But thankful that while I was away  The family members never failed to stay w him through this tough time - and they made the effort to do so so that my dad won’t stay in the hospital for too many hours and tire himself out from responsibility  SF especially spent loads of time there - and here’s a picture that she drew while she was there 💓  Did two day-shifts at the hospital before I flew  One of which was the day the feeding tube was inserted into him and I got so emotional about it cause I feared it would hurt and demoralize him  But after I came back from toilet while the Nurses did the job (cause I wasn’t allowed to be beside)  It’s all done - and the nurse ...

LEAVE DAY ME-DAY TODAY HEHE Intended to spend it at home the whole day to chill slack read watch shows clean up desk etc - basically anything but work  But I only managed to finish some pages of 與惡 script book haha  Also, dad jio-ed me and mom out to watch the birthday movie - which left me in tears several times especially the birthday party - but was too indie for their liking haha  失去不一定要以悲傷對待 歡樂 微笑 或許是紀念他們更美好的方式 It’s been a long time since I watched a movie w them - and I selfishly finished the nachos w mom and left none for dad lol 🙈 Not sure why but I certainly felt happy and had fun even though i didn’t intend to leave home in the first place  So happy that I bough 3 r&b so that it’s one cup each but ended up spending 12$ lol  In any case  Time spent with the family is time well spent 💓

Woohoo Hahahah Last day of work for my 3rd contract year cause I took leave for 31st hehe YASSS And boss decides to end work at 5 after a research trip OH YEAHHHH Hahah overly happy about this I literally small jumped for joy such that supervisor jokingly reminded me to be less obvious and boss say go back and cont thinking abt the fenchang 😂 Not to mention that I stayed up ytd to do abit of admin work so I’m rlly quite sleepy lol  WOOHOO  Even though life gonna get busy from June onwards w fenchang, real script work, added copro work, plus commencement of the three mth writers course  AT LEAST I GET A GOOD WEEKEND BREAK HEHE  Surprisingly ended up at where I started work 3 years ago (and walked down the hill to this station after work) - Caldecott station   To mark the end of contract life, 親愛的 you’ve been good  But you can be, and will be, even better  加油 🙌🙌🙌🙌 愛你 ❤️❤️❤️

So what happened for this year's birthday was it was spent entirely with the external family haha first things first, saturday was spent with w pama on getting the sushi birthday deal haha but we exceeded my 26 count so the bill went up to $40 oh wells then on 19th itself the morning was spent sending cousin off for her customary marriage and tea ceremony we subsequently went over to maternal grandma side for the usual vesak event this time, however, without attending the bazaar cause grandma doesnt wanna go (possibly due to wheelchair?) then we went back to change to attend cousin's solemnization and wedding dinner for friends at night at a modern restaurant where we helped as reception good food and new ambience - quite a good experience :)  but all the people and social events made me so tired after that i just wanna go home and rest but mama - prob scarred from my sec2 blackface cause no cake experience hahah - was insistent on getting me a cake but ...

Never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game  人總是在錯誤中學習和長大  給自己勇氣 用平常心對待 沒什麼好怕的 虛心學習  Keep an open mind  一切以作品為重  「勇敢不是無所畏懼 而是明明害怕 卻還是去做」 做個勇敢的小孩 你行的 💪 // so this was before i attended a meeting with external partners  and the following monday was spent bringing them ard spore attractions  and tour assistant me got a $79 durian treat haha   but the tour ended at 10pm after two dinner lol so shagged i knocked out when i got home

New Month New Things plan - update!  - Jan: Portfolio, LinkedIn, Cwb, Social Media, Waye (and the last three has failed/is being put on hold for now)  - February: Box office with XT, 10km, Plan for Dad’s 60th - March: New concepts and show with JY, Korea concept with SM, update resume, work out - April: Taiwan 環島 - May: Dyed my hair to copper brown! (15may) - June: Intensive part-time course - 3mth Writers class (please hang in there dear!)

其實好多好多的天真和傻氣 都是自我催眠和盲目的信任才有可能達成的 我們不笨 只是 寧可用赤裸裸的心 來交換那即使只有0.1巴仙的真誠和希望 只盼最後就算帶回滿身傷痕的身軀 也能說：我依然相信美好 // 生日說這個是不是有點奇怪 但今天聽到歌頌者最後一句 「說我不笨」 好痛 好真實 因為這就是我就算竭盡一生也要讓自己清楚知道的事

Found a few postcards and letter with timely reminders from the younger wei  (原來我從小就是心靈雞湯girl） 「因為無畏，才能戰勝自己」 「不要輕言放棄，因為堅持就是希望」 「這世界必然美好，將會美好」 Surprised by how the 21yo me has similar concerns as the 26yo me,  even wrote a line that spark tears in me that goes 「如果哪一天，你開始質疑這世界的美好，開始不解人們的心理」 Hahahah 21yo wei, you’re amazing  But so so so glad that after all these years,  I’m still me. A quote to remind myself by (from a tw director) 「我們不是看到希望才去堅持，而是堅持下去才會看到希望。」 21歲問：「現在的你是快樂的嗎？」 26歲回：「是，我很快樂。」 因為愛自己，了解自己的好 我很知足，很快樂 ❤️

做自己人生中的主角 那就夠了 那天聽到一個節目上的嘉賓說： 多數女孩的第一份安全感都來自父親 而且這份安全感是一輩子都不會變的 所以女孩們，不要從其他男人身上找尋安全感  老公只要帶給你快樂就夠了 謝謝papa 你的這份安全感超足夠～❤️

這趟旅程因《一定要相信自己》這首歌的MV而起 我莫名其妙地問了jo有沒有看過mv，要不要喝和盧廣仲一樣徒步環島 沒想到，她居然說她也正有此意 不得不說，我們真的是兩個瘋子hahahah 之後， 原本以為這個玩笑話不會成真的我 卻不知不覺就開始注意著飛機票價，和她計畫起2019年的哪一段時間更為合適 而就在盧廣仲宣布《大人中》演唱會將在4月28日舉行時 一切就有了定數。 算了算年假，再考慮下爸爸的生日， 嗯，就4月14日－5月1日吧。 在幾次面談計畫預定住宿，網路和簡訊討論，以及jo不間斷的安排下 我們準備好所有裝備（爸媽還陪我買背包旅行的東西） 一切就緒的我們（但其實很多事情都沒仔細安排） 就再14日的凌晨出發到我夢寐以求的台灣～ 話說台灣是我這麼多年來一直想去卻沒有去成的地方 它的戲劇、綜藝、歌手和藝人都在我成長階段啟發了我好多好多 這次去就好像是來到一致憧憬的地方 也像是回到爺爺家鄉的感覺 但也沒想到不去就不去，一去卻呆了17天，還環了個島。 而一個詞真的能概括這個旅途的重點：意料之外 出發前，我查看台北的天氣預報，天天晴朗，我開心得不得了 結果jo查了下，才發現台北如此，但其他地方卻不是。更荒謬的事，天氣預報我們每到一個地方，那一天就會下雨，離開就雨過天晴 結果，老天爺卻十分眷顧我們（多謝），多數日子都賞了好天氣 而就在我們覺得不會再下雨時，宜蘭卻下了一整天的雨哈哈哈 以為看不到夕陽，卻突然大晴天；有了期待之後，天空竟然烏雲密佈，甚至下起雨來 天氣大好，夕陽也就在眼前；但它卻突然躲到雲朵之間不再出來，夕陽又沒看成 想去參觀展覽，但它午休關門 看到網上的漂亮照片就去景點打卡，沒想到眼前的美卻不及照片的五分之一 （當然也不能忘了以為沒什麼的濕地卻成了清風拂面的清爽休息處） 計畫時40公里當4公里一樣說“一定行”，80公里也不當一回事 結果30公里要了我們的命，腳和肩膀痠得不行 山路崎嶇逼得我們下來推車，時速從20多km/hr降至4km/hr 我不可不服了我們的運氣，但我更佩服我們勇敢前行的衝勁 jo 真的是初生之犢不畏虎，無所畏懼的她時不時就讓我膽顫心驚 但我也慶幸自己沒在恐懼面前退縮害怕，甚至逼自己硬著頭皮往前衝不放棄 話說，我們途中在腳踏車店裡遇到兩位大叔， ...