June - Sept 2019: Writerslab Knew it was gonna be tough juggling a part-time course and work the moment I signed up for it, but it turns out to be much more fulfilling than I imagined - and I’m amazed by how I stayed awake in every class even if I felt tired because every session engaged me with more knowledge and insights relevant to scriptwriting :> 真的耶，只要有興趣，再累都不累 . I love the energy of the class, the out-of-the-world creativity without constraints of censorship and budgets, and how every single story can be constantly improved by the ideas of many other people. Indeed, sky’s the limit and you’re only limited by the limits you set for yourself. Despite being pretty troubled by how the basis of my idea has been done before so many times, I’m proud to say it is now same same but different, and better, with the inputs of everyone - so thank you all! . As mentioned by an industry expert, there will never be a master in content creation, but simply people with has ...
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有一點點神奇 在大學期間幾乎每次上學都要坐30號回家的路上 我今天又再坐了一次 但是這次是去參加課程結束的燒烤會 原本以為有事去不了 結果去得了又很猶豫該不該去 會不會尷尬 rsvp的時候改了一次又一次 結果為了不想讓自己當個逃兵 我答應去了 甚至提早去幫忙起火 比預期還遲離開 雖然不是最安逸的 但我也沒有一次聚會是安逸的啊 這已經算是很不錯的一次嘗試了 （我居然一個人參加聚會哈哈哈） In any case, the super hectic and busy 3 months have finally come to an end, but it was truly a very very rewarding journey where I pushed myself (though slacked at times too) to write and rewrite and rewrite Pretty satisfied with how the series bible and scripts eventually turned out - but there’s definitely always areas to improve more on Just really grateful that I’ve learnt and recapped so much more abt scriptwriting skills and had a coach/peers to look through the work and point out areas of improvement And some personal takeaways - - Stop going to the extremes (hahah coach finds my 18yo lead too childish cause she’s quite extreme in her reactions... but it keeps popping up till I said “I think I’m the immature one” cause I ...
回顧照片時 不自覺地興奮叫了一聲「阿嬤」 然後發現 我再也沒有機會開口叫出一聲「公公」「公公bye-bye」「公公goodnight」「公公jiak」 ❤️ 「短短幾個月面對很多生命的告別，那些你以為永遠都會在的人們，他們就這樣消失了。經歷這樣的衝擊，心裡是很難受的，但當我跟這些朋友們一起接受並勇敢地面對時，才讓我知道， 每一次的告別，都是一次狠狠地長大，雖然我們很不想要這種的長大。 是呀，面對生命的告別是一種強迫式的成長，面對感情的告別也是一種。雖然通往大人的這條路真的好難，但我相信彼此經過思考和溝通之後的離開，這都會使我們長成更好的樣子，以後說不定還能以更好的樣子再次相遇；） 敬 未來更好的我們。」 — Lulu
今天一時興起就和Joyce去唱K 一進去就唱了幾分之幾 但可能因為剛開始 沒真的用心唱 所以平安無事地唱完 卻到如果我變成回憶時 被每字每句吸進情境中 結果 想起公公 想起被他愛著卻不得不放手的我們 又落淚了 您雖然變成回憶 但我們的故事還沒有結束 只要您在我們的腦海中 記憶中 心中 我們的故事僅僅是未完待續 // 昨天 第一個沒有您的父親節 我們沒有真的慶祝 但心裡都帶著您 回到您的家 好好吃了一頓飯 正如你們每次都在盯著我們的 「去吃」 「阿嬤/公公，吃飯」 我們吃，你們也要吃哦 雖然記憶裡沒有多少父親節的畫面 所幸 去年的我們 與您 留下來一個非常非常美好的記憶 騎四人車 在草蓆上和燒烤台野餐 沙灘邊看海 一家人 與您 再加上心中的阿嬤 就是幸福 // 話說 兩年前 面對阿嬤的離開 我用最有儀式感的方式悼念她 我讓自己與世隔絕 不讓自己真正快樂起來 因為我想用我的難過 來證實我有多愛阿嬤 多想念她 但看了沒有你的生日後 我發現讓自己快樂 用歡笑來紀念親愛的人 或許是另一種悼念的方式 所以這一次 我雖然還是有點抗拒 但會儘量讓生活一切如常 用歡笑和快樂充斥我們的世界 勇敢地面對思念 堅強地繼續生活 繼續愛人 因為你們留給我們的回憶太好太珍貴 是變得更成熟 更懂事了吧 嗯 就如以前 因為你們的愛 我又長大了 愛你們 ❤️❤️❤️
「公公走了...」
The day still arrived And we eventually had to say our goodbyes Over the past few days, I thought we had seen it all from ahma’s passing, and thought we were all prepared for it since you had such a fulfilling life till age 99 But saying farewell was too hard Still too hard Many memories of us flashed passed my mind throughout the day - many of which I’ve forgotten all the way till now Everywhere had shadows of you, with us And I thank dad so much for bringing me along when he brought you out Yet regret not spending more time with you in your last six months as I spent them on work What’s worse was, on the very last chance that I could have seen you on wed, I didn’t go up but told dad to have dinner elsewhere I always thought I had more time, always pushed the idea of bringing you out to the next weekend, Only that the next weekend, now, will never come At the very least, I am grateful that I do have several memories left, most of wh...
公公 又徹夜陪伴你了 只是這次的地點不一樣 身邊也有爸爸媽媽陪伴 謝謝你 身體力行地為我們做了「堅韌」「善良」「逆轉勝」「為別人著想」的模範 謝謝你 讓我成為你的幾分之幾 並成為我人生中的幾分之幾 謝謝你 養育了這麼多善良的孩子 用愛感染大家的姑姑們 以及我這堅忍不拔的傻瓜爸爸 你和阿嬤養育了他們，並養育了這一群不願苟且去附和社會現實的孫子孫女們 我知道你們一定做對了什麼 我也知道擁有你們是我們這生命中最幸福的選擇 百善孝為先 這是我從爸爸身上學到的 我答應 我會學習更加孝順你們的寶貝兒子 像他一樣愛你們地愛他 保護他 請你們放心 僅剩三天 我開始真的害怕永遠失去你的那一天了 公公 愛你 // 話說 今天見了muni一下下 談了一點點 居然提起爺爺時落下今天第一滴淚 同時也把她這個empath弄哭了 前幾天事情發生時 她居然也感受到我不對勁 我們的頻率真的太奇妙地相似
愛你 不用回答 你是我的爺爺 是我一聲又一聲喚的「公公」 你是我們的榜樣 是我們的驕傲 愛你 好愛你 // 半夢半醒間 看到爸爸眼眶泛紅、哽咽地說 「公公走了」 我著實地嚇了一跳 星期天不是還好好的嗎 久違地那麼精神 十點多了還沒有睡意 從沒想到 那是您最後的告別 怎麼辦 我好想念那超級宏亮的「BYEBYE」 想念你因為我一直嘮叨而煩躁地說「zai la」 想念你和我一起坐在車後座遊車河 懵懵地聽著我那半桶水的福建話 想念你扶著欄杆一步一腳印地從客廳走進房間 之前還會停在阿嬤房外偷看她的狀況 關心你守護了半輩子的女人 想念你好多好多體貼溫柔善良可愛的片刻 你居然完美的無可挑剔 慶幸爸爸星期三剛陪了你一天 只希望 爸爸這一次真的無需後悔 留在心間的 都是您美好的回憶 愛你 我們等你
Some updates from the past month(s) Clearly using photos to remind me what happened while I was lazy to type my diary Gonggong was hospitalised twice - once before my taiwan trip and one after I literally checked in to the hospital before and after the trip But thankful that while I was away The family members never failed to stay w him through this tough time - and they made the effort to do so so that my dad won’t stay in the hospital for too many hours and tire himself out from responsibility SF especially spent loads of time there - and here’s a picture that she drew while she was there 💓 Did two day-shifts at the hospital before I flew One of which was the day the feeding tube was inserted into him and I got so emotional about it cause I feared it would hurt and demoralize him But after I came back from toilet while the Nurses did the job (cause I wasn’t allowed to be beside) It’s all done - and the nurse ...
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So what happened for this year's birthday was it was spent entirely with the external family haha first things first, saturday was spent with w pama on getting the sushi birthday deal haha but we exceeded my 26 count so the bill went up to $40 oh wells then on 19th itself the morning was spent sending cousin off for her customary marriage and tea ceremony we subsequently went over to maternal grandma side for the usual vesak event this time, however, without attending the bazaar cause grandma doesnt wanna go (possibly due to wheelchair?) then we went back to change to attend cousin's solemnization and wedding dinner for friends at night at a modern restaurant where we helped as reception good food and new ambience - quite a good experience :) but all the people and social events made me so tired after that i just wanna go home and rest but mama - prob scarred from my sec2 blackface cause no cake experience hahah - was insistent on getting me a cake but ...
Went to help dad with bringing grandpa to his clan association for an event after work on Tuesday Reached grandpa's house earlier than them and was abit fearful of going upstairs by myself since I've always went w pama But ultimately gathered my courage (fr sth that minor gosh) and went up So glad that I did so heh Sat beside gg while he read his newspapers And brought him down myself afterwards There were small chats - like two three sentences - and I'm thankful for these little moments with him Though we had to leave while he have his meal w papa Glad that he enjoyed himself so much that he stayed till 1030 - which was wayyyyyyy past his usual bedtime at 830/9pm 公公好棒❤️