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i'm like doing a research on the places of interest i'm going to in china, but the words just seem to go pass my eyes without enterring i'm expecting the tourguide/teacher to ask anyone knows... ? and i'll be like ??? ah crap this is irritating. going for dinner later with my family and relatives but idk, i feel so zzz about going off tmr people wont feel it this way i suppose they'll be all that excited and stuff cause yknw, it's an overseas trip! but ba i'm not excited ._. and now the excitement has fallen to a zero. had msn chats with xintian and angela in the afternoon first time havin long chats in aftn hahaha it wasnt long actually, just long cause it's in the aftn ._. whatever, what am i saying anyway. thought that miracles will happen and things will change but till the end, it just stays that way. dear lord, take care of my parents please. with this, i end my final post before i leave for china tmr morning.

starting to feel a lil... homesick. not exactly though, i'm at home, but there isn't anyone, so i suppose i'm... family/singapore sick. pffffffft. think its pms or what starting to feel the emotions fluctuate again. in any case, i have phone + music + photos + pigrabbit to accompany me on this trip where i have no close friends to be with yet and i can't bring bearbear along cause he's too big to go into the already-filled-luggage :( i wonder who i can msg when i feel awkward with people i'm just hoping that homesickness will strike me only on the plane back to singapore if not i'll feel so sad :( and i don't like. had bad dreams again saaaaaaad dream abt a man attempting to stab my dad kept screaming (in my head) till i jerk and woke up can't all these dreams just stop? it's been interrupting my sleeeeeeep :( and making me feel downright worried in the middle of the night. anw, i'm gonna bring photos of my close ones there (as in dwnloading ...

had two dreams yesterday scary dreams, but not to the extent of nightmare, but scary. first, i dreamt that my mum was pregnant and the whole family was filled with the joyous atmosphere but later, we found out that it was cancer and i woke up. it's great that it didn't carry on, cause i cant imagine what can happen and i'm seriously hoping that this is not going to ever come true the fear of losing a loved one is crazy what's more if the loved one's your parent? hopefully, it's just a dream that doesn't come true. then the second dream was when there's an earthquake it's the tremor that was felt actually we were at my grandmother's house and it just happened. my mind went blank and all i could think of, is to hold on to my mum and grandma and please, stay safe. i'm afraid of the upcoming trip cause there just seems to be so many thing worth worrying about especially after angela's incident, i feel even more horrified that something bad ma...

the weather forecast cheated hon and i of our picnic @ botanic gardens! haha anyways, i spent my day eating and dramaing 金石良緣 haha typical holiday that i just got to enjoy :) then i felt soooo bloated that i decided to go running! :D it became a run/jog/walk from 6-7pm. now that i remembered, 6-615 was spent talking to angela by the riverside so i didn't work out for 1 hour afterall ... anyway, great job today! :D i ran back from 2.4 end point to my house after running from my house to under the klp bridge :) more to work on, but great for a start! :D and i love how running makes me feel happy :D other than the fact that the wind and music spurred me on, i like how it poses as a challenge such that i'll feel a sense of achievement that hey! you've conquered the side of you that gives up easily! :) after which, i went to visit angela with yanci to see the injuries suffered after the accident. i've always thought about friends dying or hospitalised and stuff but it's...

@ 11:11, i don't know if anyone's thinking about me but right at this moment, i'm thinking about quite a few friends. one of them, huayingying, is irritating. i just happened to go to the water where she eats her burgers, and found a new post, or species, to fit the context of the water, so i realised, hey! she can get on tumblr in china! so i excitedly wanted to send her an email on hotmail but... i can't remember her email ._. i deliberated on using dhsmail but eventually, decided not to. so yingying, if you're seeing this, you're an irritating git. NO I'M JUST JOKING HAHA WELCOME BACK! :) you can read this post only when you're back, so this msg's for you :) the other, yangmuni, i just bloody realised that she has a blog ._. where she puts on another front tsk haha jkjk it just sounds like a not-so-muni person writing lol so this is the post (part of the post that's dedicated to me) which i found that made me go o.O haha XIAO WEI! the lollipo...

this is what happens when i try to type "harry" in my phone using dictionary it always turn to "happy" but cute, isn't it? :) humans, should get a better sense of responsibility from initial 21 to current 14 seriously, wtf? i would appreciate much more if you guys inform us much earlier. thanks, not. but here's a great sincere thankyou to my dear guitar/classmates moktard and sam :D i convinced them to watch my dear dear harry potter and the deathly hallows part I :D greaaaaat movie! (other than the fact that some precious time has been taken off to film additional scenes such as harry-hermione dancing? idk, that's really quite weird) and rupert grint is so much more charming than before! even better than daniel radcliffe ;) and i'm gonna tell sub that fred seriously called george georgie in the show when he became holey aww :) and really, the 140 mins simply flasssssshed past! now, i can't wait for part 2 :D finally, i hope i have managed to spa...

just got to knw that xinyi saw lollipop f doing autograph sessions at taiwan!! pfffffft. why do i not have the luck :( but wow greaaaat experience yknww :D

latest update on beijing's temperature, 0 - 10 degrees celcius (wonder if it's an improvement from the -1 to 13 or -6 degrees a few days ago haha) anw. here's my plan for china trip! DO HOMEWORK AT NIGHT! since i'm stucked with a tj girl that i dont knw as a roommate and yknw, it takes time for me to get close to someone so before i do, there's gonna be loads of free time and awkward silent moments at night so... i'm gonna use them to do work! what's more, ppl says that you wanna eat in cold environment, so i hope it serves as a deterrence from eating fooood (if not my roommate's gonna think she's rooming with some greedy fatass) hahaha and reading & working often drives me to sleeeeeeeep so it's gonna work if i can't fall asleep due to homesick or loneliness working along with my dear music phone :D 3 good points of homeworking! one more, it helps to clear my workload that i have not touched since school hols heh lastly, ly rejected my h...

back from guitar :D and i'm not typing smoothly due to the pained finger tips on my left hand anw. awww alto is so fun :D i like the song, especially after taking away the solos but then again, some solo parts are fun :) yet, only isaac can play them well haha fun fun fun! but there's auditions tmr, so practice!!!! later :) after watching some videos heh wanted to watch harry potter with esther/hon/ly but esther's still having guitar and when she's back from japan, i'm in china, and hon's busy cause she went out with idk who (whowhowho?) and ly.. i suppose she's still auditioning y4s in any case, i dont even knw if she wanna watch hahaha thought of asking the rest but you see, they are overseas (muni, angela, yingying) or that they are sick (moktard) or busy (subin) or uninterested (yanci) probably so anw, that tells me that, hey xiaowei, go home prac! so here i am, at home, but prac later ;) anw i just made a search on my archives to see who i watched half ...

i feel reallllly glad that i'm moving on so much faster than coup/mia hohoho even though it's still far from perfection... or even, far from passing kevin's auditions today, is my third bbq in 4 days, and it's the one i enjoyed most :) there isn't any laughter or truly entertaining incident that happened but i feel really, really touched and happy all because no matter how simple it is, it's my parents little idea to bond and present me with a memory i can bring to wherever i go :) many many thanks and i love my parents loads :) ♥ 簡單就是幸福 ：） @0028: just had a longtimenotalk short chat with hengliying :) and i hope i'm going to see her tmr in school if we're lucky :) and i wanna see xintian too! :) and i'm pretty sure, i'm seeing estherhong haha

the feeling of being cheated arises again cause just for sudden greed, i lost time and experience that cost me much much more. argh why is so many people unable to be contacted :( muni, angela, yingying it's feel so weird and sad gaaaaaaaah heaaaaaaadache :( due to sleeping for 5 hours in the morn after staying up the whole night as in staying up was okay but pfffffft, not the after effects :/ goodbye. adding on on 17/11 2350, do not, overate yourself.

today's pw filming is a relatively new and cool experience there were several moments of awkwardness and times when mistakes were made and the people seems angry, but there's a point where everyone burst out laughing that i find very amusing. and that is, when i did the imagining part ._. hahahaha but it's the funniest attempt i've ever made due to mr chew hahaha he has this expression that seems amazed by the jasmine aroma samples and starts rubbing it on his wrist and smelling it from his arm all the facial expressions just causes me to be unable not to laugh hahaha yesterday and today's afternoon, we felt irritated and $&!(!%^&* that we are unable to end pw till such a late timing. perhaps others may not have the same sentiments, but after it all, i think that this filming gave us a best present, as it is DH004's special takeaway which is uniquely ours :) before that, huayingyingzsxszxsxz came to my house to cook her first ever instant noodles! hahaha...

PW IS OVERRRRRRRRR!!! and this, is my beloved PW group mates! DH004 - Nicole Yingying Xiaowei Shamo YEAAAA OWNAGE ♥♥♥♥ but there's filming tmr and i dont rmb the Q&A stuff! and i have to repeat my noooob answer tmr which i can't rmb. but in any case, GOOOOOD JOB 5C11! ♥ DH001, DH002, DH003, DH004, DH005! and. THANKYOU MS HUDA ♥♥ greaaaat day with the end of PW! :D and. get well very very soon yang muni!!!♥

Nurul Huda Hassan wishes 5C11 all the best tomorrow! There's no better day than 11/11 to show how effortless effort can look! Last resort: Pretend the audience is naked :D our fabulous nice ttm pw teacher awww :D

你蹲得越底，就跳得越高 －LOLLIPOP-F 楊奇煜 didn't think my pw rehearsal was acceptable/good in any sense was worried and became a lil down but the above sentence gave me confidence :) even though it's this little, but at least, i have regained this amount of confidence :) dear laugh gas, please leave me for just that 5 minutes :)

THIS IS FOR LOWXINTIAN YOOOOHOOOOO I KNW YOU ARE LOOKING AT THIS NOWWW. hahahahahahaha SHE LIKES《最佳男配角》! didn't expect her to like it but YAY :D great choice girl! hahahaha

every one of the seven. but i suppose the first one that entered my mind should be my favourite. this is the first book i started with i bet most would be like "what? i'm sure you understand what happened by starting from the fifth book." and indeed, i was terribly lost and guess what i took 6 months to finish the 700 plus pages hahahaha but in the end, i love it all the same! after rereading the book after finishing the first four events of the fifth year struck me even harder kreacher and his loyalty for the blacks harry and his need for parental love neville and his badly distressed parents severus and his unspeakable past umbridge and her despicable views of the inferior so on and so forth other than these, there's this incident that i'm dead sure anyone who read the book would not forget and it is which that spread over two chapters - sirius death. where harry stupidly fail to restrain himself in falling to voldermort's trick (which was exactly the reason...

Karis: Hi ex-PW mates, good luck for your OP! awww. it was a great time last year with my two pw matesy Karis Ong and Chau See Mun Cheryl (CSMC ^^) hahaha and Karis, i'm realllly touched by the msg even though it's just a simple msg :) jiayou 4C Group 9!♥ (i made a search in my archives heheh) and DH004! ♥ a bit more jiayou! and. jasmine and the number 4 follows me everywhere. my PW code is DH00 4 and an aroma scent i'm gonna use on thurs is jasmine . hahaha and the list of how i'm related to 4 and jasmine goes on and on... :) and both the group numbers form the number ... 49 hahaha lastly. ALL THE BEST TO THE YEAR SIXES AND J2s FOR ALVLS ♥ it's a late msg and i doubt anyone of them will see this but still, it's a blessing that i hope it reaches out to them :)

times have changed, so have humans, and organisations. last wed, while i was on my way to clep talk with 黃老師, we had a talk on guides atc and how this year is pretty much different from what we had. she recounted her two days there and one part of it was the atmosphere. instead of what we had, yknw, the filled with fear and disciplined, where no one smiles/laughs, this year was one where many of them bonded with smiles and laughters. the only constant is change isn't it? so is guides and every batch of girls. we were different from our seniors, and so will the juniors be different from us. who are we, to expect the exact same from them? i suppose the root problem of it all, is that we are unable to adapt to changes in our used-to-be organisations. if not, there could be two other explanations :) one would be that we are continually expecting the best (that we have assumed to be standards of the past) and the other, quoting from ms huda's fb, Nurul Huda Hassan And this is why P...

got this from weiqi's fb (don't really know her but still, this thingy is fun yay) HARRY POTTER 30 DAY CHALLENGE Day 1: Your fave book. Day 2: Your fave movie. Day 3: If you can drink the polyjuice potion, who would you choose to become? Day 4: Least fave female character. Day 5: What would you want your wand to be made of? (wood + core) Day 6: What house would you want to be in? Day 7: What would you see in the mirror of erised? Day 8: What do you think would be your fave lesson? Day 9: Least fave movie. Day 10: What's your preferred mode of transport? Thestrals, brooms, vanishing cabinets, floo network, flying cars or apparation? Day 11: What character would you say you are most similar to? Day 12: Least fave male character. Day 13: Fave scene in the book/film Day 14: After drinking felix felicis(with the effects lasting for an entire day), what would you do? Day 15: Who would be your best friends at hogwarts. (three only) Day 16: Fave professor Day 17: If you were to pl...

：可不可以有一个人，可以看穿我的逞强，可以保护我的脆弱。 他会在我的眼泪掉下以前，就用大大的手掌捂住我的眼睛，轻声说我的眼睛只有微笑的时候才是最好看。 他会在我受到委屈的时候，把我的脑袋按在他的肩膀上，告诉我在他的面前，永远都不需要伪装坚强，告诉我就算“所有的人都不相信你，都还有我。 - 精彩语录 just saw this and yea nice :)

it was a great day :) before that, went to toa payoh with my mum to find coolzone online shop to pay deposit for lollipop-f's preordered album went very blindly cause i have no address and don't knw who that person is so i suppose my mum was quite angry by my stupidity ._. but in any case, it was in a hdb flat above a coffee shop even though it isn't a shop as in a shop it's really cool cause there's loooooooads of merchandise inside so no matter you are chinese pop or kpop, you can try finding new/old stuff there with/without autographs :) andandand many thanks to them for helping me to preorder cause i wouldn't know where to get it without their shop :) and thanks to its location, had brunch with my mum at fortunate restaurant dimsum :D it's expeensive... but it's nice :D then went for dental and got a bloody bad news cause there's decay in the filling i got in P3/P4 cause the school dentist didn't clear all the decay then, i have to redo the f...

omgomgomgomgomg. YAY I PREORDERED LOLLIPOP-F'S 四度空間 ONLNE :D:D:D it was a last minute decision upon seeing their cool ttm 4D box :D:D hahahaha i feel like some longtimeago kid who buys loads of albums but it's damn bloody expensive (29.90 omg and +$10 for autograph i was bloody shocked when i said Yes to the autograph ._.) but anywayyyyyy. my first online purchase! LOLLIPOP FTW :D i'm gonna save money these days to pay for this $40 CD pffffffffffft.

有时候，莫名的心情不好，不想和任何人说话，只想一个人静静的发呆； 有时候，突然觉得心情烦躁，看什么都觉得不舒服，拼命想寻找一个出口； 有时候，感觉自己与世界格格不入，曾经一直坚持的东西一夜间面目全非； 有时候，别人突然对你说，我觉得你变了，然后自己开始百感交集。 - 早安-晚安-心语 hahaha other than the fact that the first 3 lines of the quote explains how i feel whenever i'm down, MUNI! try understanding the first sentence when humans need silence hahaha 做一个温暖的女孩子。做一个爱笑的女孩子。 快乐并懂得如何快乐。快乐并感染身边的人快乐 偶尔任性，却不犀利。偶尔敏感，却不神经质。 乐意和大家分享所有开心和不开心的事情。 高兴，就笑，让大家都知道。 悲伤，就哭，然后当做什么也没发生。 偶尔，只需要一个鼓励的微笑，就可以说服自己继续坚强下去 - 时尚女性 it's once again another action that's easier said than done in this world where individualistic humans dominate and easily misunderstand others around, we can never be what we truly are and react like how we truly feel cause it's really hard find a friend that accepts all that you are. 宽恕、原谅并不代表忘记，也不代表赦免，而是放自己一条生路。 孤单不是有没有朋友，而是有没有人住在你心里。 - 精彩语录 very true, for me and many other kids out there i suppose. we're often too engrossed in our world to really bother about others alongisde, 嚴以律己 can be done, but ...

senior high, is when all fun starts :) hahaha that's an overstatement but, it's definitely more interesting than junior high (to me.) i don't remember being upset over leaving junior high or what even though i do miss being in 4C and the teachers but senior high senior high less time with more workload and mugging that should have been done, life is simply fun. hahaha probably cause of the people i'm around, we go to school and laugh the day away life, just became interesting without knowing, but grades, also started slipping awayyyyy from A. (not that it was an A from the start, but it got further away) this is a post after reading some sec4s' post on how they dread snr high but i suppose, they are all gonna change after orientation (if it's like ours yay) hohoho and i just saw one junior choosing history as a subject and oops you're gonna die of shock when you feel the heavy content in midyear! hahahaha smirkkkkkkkks but aww history is nice :) any case, op...

做不了决定的时候，让时间帮你决定，如果还是无法决定，做了再说。宁愿犯错，不留遗憾。 - 精彩语录 this was how i led my life last year ... and this year. when we had to make choices. "To grow, you must be willing to let your present and future be totally unlike your past. Your history is not your destiny." Alan Cohen When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry, show life that you have a thousand reasons to smile。 - 早安-晚安-心语 it is always hard to put words into practice. 不要评价别人容貌因为他不靠你吃饭. 不要评价别人的德行因为你未必有他高尚. 不要评价别人家庭因为那和你无关. 总之, 不要评价任何人哪怕是你的家人. 不要乱花钱因为明天你就可能失业, 不要趾高气扬因为明天你就可能失势, 不要吹嘘爱情因为明天你就可能失恋, 不要委屈自己因为明天你就可能死去。 - 经典语录 “有时一个人在房间里什么都不做,觉得委屈的时,痛痛快快的哭一场, 哭过之后,好像重新找回了自己; 哭过之后,心情也会觉得舒坦很多; 哭过之后,也找回重新面对委屈的倔强; 哭过之后,整理好心情,也总以美丽的笑脸面对他人; 也许这就人生,也许这就是每个人面具背后的真实。在这个世界谁又真的了解谁呢？” - 精彩语录 人就这么一辈子，开心也是一天，不开心也是一天，干嘛硬要逼着自己不开心呢？ 是啊，人就这么一辈子，做错事不可以重来的一辈子； 碎了的心难在愈合的一辈子； 过了今天就不会再有另一个今天的一辈子； 一分一秒都不会再回头的一辈子； 我们为什么不好好珍惜眼前，为什么还要拼命地自怨自艾，痛苦追悔呢？ - 经典语录 记住，不是眼泪就可以挽回失去的。所以不要轻易流下你的泪。 记住，不是伤心就一定要哭泣。所以不要那么吝啬你的微笑 。 记住，不是你认为可以给予就给予。所以不要那么轻易许下承诺。 记住，不是你做的不够好。所以不...

came back from macs with DH004 :D this is the first time we sat down to talk leisurely which means we talk about stuff that's not work, but life and people. there is many parts of the details that i have forgotten, but i really like how nicole opens up to us on what she thinks and felt and i truly envy and respect how she braced herself when she was down aww it's just so great to have her as our group leader :) i think we have all changed as life posed its challenges to us but the changes can be for the better or the worse till the end of the day it's your attitude that determines what you are and for this, i shall do myself a favour and learn from nicole :) similarly, i think many of us label others without gaining truth from all parties we hear, we assume, we judge, we never bother to find out the truth that, is the stupidity of humans. huayingyingzszxs, you poor thing :( we are not the best group but we are the group with cool, unique, only-child 4-people group :) we are...

ohmygod what is my world coming into? hahahaha my mum started reading stuff from a book when my dad insists that she can't control the volume of sneezing then my dad says: "why are you getting so defensive ?" then my mum continues reading and says, "... karma " and as they continue debating she says, "... karma will come to you" ohmy why is this defensive and karma thing entering my house?

the first lesson at hogwarts during charms lesson aww so cute :) hahaha i like that smug face of sirius :) when pokemon and harry potter antagonists combine... look at the two cute boys! and the words are hohoho this is bloody cool (but it's just abt fitting the letters ._.): the above photos are taken (once again) from fuckyeahdeathlyhallows.tumblr.com lowxintianzxsxsxz i'm sorrrrry for not sending photos yet cause my cam has been borrowed awayyyyy before i transfer the stuff to the com cause i keep putting it offffffff haha 對不起！ (i can introduce bbt's 對不起 song to you yknw :) hahaha jkjk)