Yesterday night The whole family miraculously gathered in grandpa’s house for a meal And watched grandpa’s bday photo projected on the tv I was resting in the room cause I was tired But decided to go out a while later and so glad I did so There were loads of laugher, tons of joy And there gonggong was, sitting in the middle hearing and seeing it all But just for a moment when he stopped responding My heart skipped a beat For fear that the last has happened And I’m so glad it didn’t And blames the sunglasses for hiding his eyes and making me afraid I thought I would have gotten use to the idea of loss But no, it doesn’t get any easier Haven’t been able to spend much time w gonggong Especially the past few weeks where I couldn’t even go for the weekly dinners as I was in a mad rush for work I hope I can make up for it soon Weekly, or fortnightly 公公，我们爱你 ❤️
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Super glad that I’ve been pretty proud of the things that i did for work recently hehe Just finished a ppt that I spent 4-5 nights on cause I had to redevelop the story from a concept we submitted in jan Lol that initial concept was filled w many suspense questions at the end to keep the reader hooked But we actually had no answers to them in actual fact So I had to 后兜 what was left in the concept and it was brain damaging hahah But super happy now that the story is now valid w answers and quite good imo Haha shameless but to be fair my dad was quite impressed cause he like the twists we injected hehe Supervisor helped so much w the logical flow and she said it’s well done too so YAYYYYYY Happy that my baby has born out well :D Actually most write would consider the actual show their baby but for a pitching slide like this that might not even be produced, im alr super proud of the proposal 😊 (And I finally felt what my colleague meant...
談後感
與其自憐自艾 不如做出實際一點的努力 讀書 看戲 練習分場 分析場次 記下筆記 找寻新角度 參與生活 提高靈敏度 接下來的一年 直到明年的五月 不要再空口說白話 讓疲累成為懶散的藉口 到時 二十六歲的你 堅決果斷地做出決定 要繼續努力 還是另闢蹊徑 重新出發 In an additional note Many thanks to 卲老師 for giving me more concrete skills and direction to work on And even more grateful to colleague al for honestly telling me the areas to improve TV team work naturally comes with conflict and discussions Think through every decisions you make - why this way? Is the show better this way? Is the imagery stronger this way? Is this more enjoyable to watch? What is another way to do this? Know what you want to achieve. If you try another method, do you get the effect you want? Don’t be easily swayed, think twice, have a stand. THINK!!!
Decisions and Reflections
this is the first time i've seriously contemplated the idea of giving up on my dreamsand despite all the difficulties and pains of the environment that i have no power of changing the greatest pushing factor would be how inadequate and incapable i am even after two years. i'm so so thankful for the colleague who teaches me so much even though she's not obliged to and despite heeding everyone's advice to watch more programs i've only come to realize that i've not been watching what i should be looking out for as an audience, i look out for how entertaining, touching and thought-provoking a program is as a newbie writer, i look out for how interesting/different the story plot is and whether the characters are still in-character but as a staff writer, what i should be looking out for are the small events that push the story forward and portray characters' personality in subtle manners. and yet, i've only realized it now, after nearly 1 year and 10 ...
Guangzhou 2018
Back from an overseas trip w Joycelyn 😊 Despite the vastly different hygiene habits lol, I like how we can be so similar in many many ways Long time since I've left the comfort of home But china does seem to become the home of a close friend such that I'm at so much ease whenever I'm there The lack of language barrier and even becoming similar in the accents probably helped a great deal And opening your heart many little bits more definitely helps too Even though our feets and legs are in so much pain for the past 5-6 days It was a great getaway and a very appropriate time for me to clear some thoughts While I have so much doubts on my future and desire to leave the place I once aspired to be in I do know that it gives me a great deal of freedom and happiness when I do get to do something I like Only that, how many years of youth can I spend? And eve...
What others didn't tell you about pursuing your dreams Is that you may not be good enough after all. Have been entertaining this thought for a while now Much as this is what I love most Maybe I don't actually love it as much as what others do Maybe that's why such thoughts recur time and again Maybe it's the environment Maybe it's the nature of how things work here Maybe it's the lack of quick thinking brains Maybe I've just been standing at the wrong door Waiting for the wrong opportunities all this while In any case, thankful for today's upupupz Still bad, but finally a more decent level to leverage myself against when I try moving out