因为重视，所以小心，所以写不出稿！！！！
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Decisions and Reflections
this is the first time i've seriously contemplated the idea of giving up on my dreamsand despite all the difficulties and pains of the environment that i have no power of changing the greatest pushing factor would be how inadequate and incapable i am even after two years. i'm so so thankful for the colleague who teaches me so much even though she's not obliged to and despite heeding everyone's advice to watch more programs i've only come to realize that i've not been watching what i should be looking out for as an audience, i look out for how entertaining, touching and thought-provoking a program is as a newbie writer, i look out for how interesting/different the story plot is and whether the characters are still in-character but as a staff writer, what i should be looking out for are the small events that push the story forward and portray characters' personality in subtle manners. and yet, i've only realized it now, after nearly 1 year and 10 ...
Guangzhou 2018
Back from an overseas trip w Joycelyn 😊 Despite the vastly different hygiene habits lol, I like how we can be so similar in many many ways Long time since I've left the comfort of home But china does seem to become the home of a close friend such that I'm at so much ease whenever I'm there The lack of language barrier and even becoming similar in the accents probably helped a great deal And opening your heart many little bits more definitely helps too Even though our feets and legs are in so much pain for the past 5-6 days It was a great getaway and a very appropriate time for me to clear some thoughts While I have so much doubts on my future and desire to leave the place I once aspired to be in I do know that it gives me a great deal of freedom and happiness when I do get to do something I like Only that, how many years of youth can I spend? And eve...
What others didn't tell you about pursuing your dreams Is that you may not be good enough after all. Have been entertaining this thought for a while now Much as this is what I love most Maybe I don't actually love it as much as what others do Maybe that's why such thoughts recur time and again Maybe it's the environment Maybe it's the nature of how things work here Maybe it's the lack of quick thinking brains Maybe I've just been standing at the wrong door Waiting for the wrong opportunities all this while In any case, thankful for today's upupupz Still bad, but finally a more decent level to leverage myself against when I try moving out
okay it has been a long while since i wrote anything about my life so here goes - whatever i can remember just finished thirteen reasons why and it's soooooo gooooood just like how i like it since i first saw its trailer many many months ago haha first us/uk english series since friends/charmed probably lol
Before I move on to the scripts that are way overdue (ohmygod dies) I'm glad the last key assignment ended on a good note heh With approx 50% of preprep effort, I did what I couldn't with 100% (which also gave rise to uncontrollable nerves, fear and choking from my contracted throat as I forgot to breathe) Finally finally I presented like how I did when I was in Uni - calm, confident and w eye contact (okay I still brought the notes w me) but I think being chill and fearless helped so much (Gosh the fears of imperfect Chinese was so damn real the previous time and it just screwed everything) I love to see many ideas presented on our tv screens, even though the possibility of having most of it is kinda low But thankful and grateful (Even though it's rlly damn tiring to do the slides oh god) Okay after a meal w jojong (兩個宅女難得出門的日子) A good night's sleep is essential and hopefully full force to the CYE scripts 💪