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Before I move on to the scripts that are way overdue (ohmygod dies) I'm glad the last key assignment ended on a good note heh  With approx 50% of preprep effort, I did what I couldn't with 100% (which also gave rise to uncontrollable nerves, fear and choking from my contracted throat as I forgot to breathe) Finally finally  I presented like how I did when I was in Uni - calm, confident and w eye contact (okay I still brought the notes w me) but I think being chill and fearless helped so much  (Gosh the fears of imperfect Chinese was so damn real the previous time and it just screwed everything)  I love to see many ideas presented on our tv screens, even though the possibility of having most of it is kinda low But thankful and grateful  (Even though it's rlly damn tiring to do the slides oh god) Okay after a meal w jojong (兩個宅女難得出門的日子) A good night's sleep is essential and hopefully full force to the CYE scripts 💪

Busy Wheezy Jan 18

It has been a super tiring first month of the year. It felt like I went back to the last sem of Uni when I had to finish 7 assignments/projects in one weeek and 6 in another  Only that this time, it's only approx three assignments and I'm feeling super shagged (yes I'm rlly becoming old)  That being said, this month has been really fruitful with loads of things learnt and senses turned on  Working on CYE allowed me to learn so much from my colleague - it was nearly like a one on one tuition on scriptwriting (tyvm al!) - setup payoff setup payoff setup payoff haha Going through a weekly (in fact more - from once to twice to thrice a week worth) of sitcom classes also ingrained the idea of 3act structure into my brain while giving me tips on writing jokes and punchlines  Super tired from all the classes and writing scripts and concepts but I'm glad I stepped out of the comfort zone and reaped rewards I wouldn't have 🙌 PS I wrote an ep on PCK woohoo!...
It has been quite a while since I feel so drained mentally and physically I can't even say that I'm contributing much in meetings cause my colleague's brains love so much faster than mine that prob 80% of the ideas are hers Gosh I never expected this project to be so taxing and urgent it's like killing me from inside 🙈 And fml, I just stepped on a moth I'm sorry :( :( :( 

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「沒有理所當然的成功,只有不問收穫的努力」 - our producer :) As the show comes to an end I can't believe that I actually feel sad to say farewell to all the characters I would say this is the best story I've worked on - all credits to the supervisors - with distinctive characters and meaningful storylines, not to mention the various comedic moments that we laughed at while discussing and when they were later shown on screen While there are flaws here and there, it doesn't negate the enjoyment I gained from watching it as an audience, so many thanks to the production crew for bringing the story alive :) Despite the negativity many have thrown at the show due to the theme (and their usual cynicism), I'm glad that many more have laughed, teared, enjoyed and grew with the show over the past month  Thankful for the experience of being a small part of this show,  And may we all enter the new year with a more reflective self without losing  the innocence and humour in us :) W...

Reflection

2017 has been a year of loses I've lost a dear kin, my childhood companion, loads of motivation, sight of the future I used to dream of, part of the passion that burned so strongly in the past, and nearly all of my self-confidence. I gave myself tons of excuses, fearful of making mistakes and what others think of me, stuck in the grey area between humbleness and a serious lack of confidence, torn between " I'm being myself" and joining the crowd that unsettles me. There were so many downs in the year, of which i didn't realise how much I've caved in to excuses till this moment. That being said,  The loss of granny made me review the amt of time (or lack of) that I've spent with my grandparents Nearly every alternate weekend has been spent with either my grandpa or my maternal grandma Even though grandpa doesn't express his emotions and desires often, there's always a desire to bring him out of the house that he's somewhat trappe...
On the last working day of the year, I worked till 7pm And made Joyce wait for 40minutes But I'm so glad and happy to meet her cause there's so much energy in her that uplifts your mood and enthusiasm towards life  我不知道我們會當多少年的朋友 但我好感激有一個如此不同 卻又如此知心的你 希望多年後 我們,還是我們 
是因為覺得受委屈了才想到您嗎 還是 就只是想您了呢? 當注意力都集中在我身上 我的本能反應就是反抗 我嘗試,卻在錯的時間點出現 我放縱,卻被莫名地點出而尷尬 我不喜歡這樣的自己 我不喜歡好多好多的自己 可是卻又一直告訴自己要愛自己才可以 沒有自信 真的好辛苦  連一個字都說不出 真的好鬱悶 我好想念乖巧寂靜也能被接受的時候 你總會在那裡保護我 袒護喔 可是你不在了 我回不去了 我沒有勇氣和自信面對長大了的大家 現實虛偽的世界 可是我只能繼續往前走 繼續走 繼續走 昨天逛街時 我看到了好多你的衣服 你那種花花綠綠的軟綿襯衫 我好想買 卻永遠都送不出去了