Taking a lil time on the train ride to... Think Idk why but my brain seems to be fried every single day Remembering things feel like it's ever so difficult Yet having to note things down make me tired and distract me from what's being discussed on hand So lil time to think through the many many things on my list Tired mentally and physically But more helpless than ever with the state of the brain I hope I truly hope it isn't a sign of sth worse 🥲
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Convocation 2023
Second graduation! A little underwhelmed and actually super jittery and awkward to be back with the classmates But yana and diana helped so help - as usual - sumarni too tho we didn't actually work tgt before It was a whole session of "what's his/her name" but turned out pretty fun also And most importantly, I give thanks to my parents for helping and supporting me through these tough two years (But guilty for being curt towards dad for rushing and anxious - without which i would be late lol 🥲) And we did a lil photoshoot around campus!
turning thirty
This month turned out to be very different from what I imagined Especially with the absence of ahma, whom I've already planned to have a buffet with and have her sing the birthday song beside me at her dining table What I thought to be for certain was no longer And I dropped into a dark space that appeared 6years ago when ahma passed away All the plans to celebrate The things I wanted to do The food I wanted to have The reflections of growing old that I had Just disappeared along with you I thought it was easier without regrets But no, not at all So many memories with you And so much love from you Made farewell so much harder in a way I never expect 阿嬤 wa sa zap liao lao liao But you would say Buay la And tell me how you're 87 ❤️