1921

Some updates from the past month(s) Clearly using photos to remind me what happened while I was lazy to type my diary  Gonggong was hospitalised twice - once before my taiwan trip and one after  I literally checked in to the hospital before and after the trip  But thankful that while I was away  The family members never failed to stay w him through this tough time - and they made the effort to do so so that my dad won’t stay in the hospital for too many hours and tire himself out from responsibility  SF especially spent loads of time there - and here’s a picture that she drew while she was there 💓  Did two day-shifts at the hospital before I flew  One of which was the day the feeding tube was inserted into him and I got so emotional about it cause I feared it would hurt and demoralize him  But after I came back from toilet while the Nurses did the job (cause I wasn’t allowed to be beside)  It’s all done - and the nurse ...

LEAVE DAY ME-DAY TODAY HEHE Intended to spend it at home the whole day to chill slack read watch shows clean up desk etc - basically anything but work  But I only managed to finish some pages of 與惡 script book haha  Also, dad jio-ed me and mom out to watch the birthday movie - which left me in tears several times especially the birthday party - but was too indie for their liking haha  失去不一定要以悲傷對待 歡樂 微笑 或許是紀念他們更美好的方式 It’s been a long time since I watched a movie w them - and I selfishly finished the nachos w mom and left none for dad lol 🙈 Not sure why but I certainly felt happy and had fun even though i didn’t intend to leave home in the first place  So happy that I bough 3 r&b so that it’s one cup each but ended up spending 12$ lol  In any case  Time spent with the family is time well spent 💓

Woohoo Hahahah Last day of work for my 3rd contract year cause I took leave for 31st hehe YASSS And boss decides to end work at 5 after a research trip OH YEAHHHH Hahah overly happy about this I literally small jumped for joy such that supervisor jokingly reminded me to be less obvious and boss say go back and cont thinking abt the fenchang 😂 Not to mention that I stayed up ytd to do abit of admin work so I’m rlly quite sleepy lol  WOOHOO  Even though life gonna get busy from June onwards w fenchang, real script work, added copro work, plus commencement of the three mth writers course  AT LEAST I GET A GOOD WEEKEND BREAK HEHE  Surprisingly ended up at where I started work 3 years ago (and walked down the hill to this station after work) - Caldecott station   To mark the end of contract life, 親愛的 you’ve been good  But you can be, and will be, even better  加油 🙌🙌🙌🙌 愛你 ❤️❤️❤️

So what happened for this year's birthday was it was spent entirely with the external family haha first things first, saturday was spent with w pama on getting the sushi birthday deal haha but we exceeded my 26 count so the bill went up to $40 oh wells then on 19th itself the morning was spent sending cousin off for her customary marriage and tea ceremony we subsequently went over to maternal grandma side for the usual vesak event this time, however, without attending the bazaar cause grandma doesnt wanna go (possibly due to wheelchair?) then we went back to change to attend cousin's solemnization and wedding dinner for friends at night at a modern restaurant where we helped as reception good food and new ambience - quite a good experience :)  but all the people and social events made me so tired after that i just wanna go home and rest but mama - prob scarred from my sec2 blackface cause no cake experience hahah - was insistent on getting me a cake but ...

Never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game  人總是在錯誤中學習和長大  給自己勇氣 用平常心對待 沒什麼好怕的 虛心學習  Keep an open mind  一切以作品為重  「勇敢不是無所畏懼 而是明明害怕 卻還是去做」 做個勇敢的小孩 你行的 💪 // so this was before i attended a meeting with external partners  and the following monday was spent bringing them ard spore attractions  and tour assistant me got a $79 durian treat haha   but the tour ended at 10pm after two dinner lol so shagged i knocked out when i got home

New Month New Things plan - update!  - Jan: Portfolio, LinkedIn, Cwb, Social Media, Waye (and the last three has failed/is being put on hold for now)  - February: Box office with XT, 10km, Plan for Dad’s 60th - March: New concepts and show with JY, Korea concept with SM, update resume, work out - April: Taiwan 環島 - May: Dyed my hair to copper brown! (15may) - June: Intensive part-time course - 3mth Writers class (please hang in there dear!)

其實好多好多的天真和傻氣 都是自我催眠和盲目的信任才有可能達成的 我們不笨 只是 寧可用赤裸裸的心 來交換那即使只有0.1巴仙的真誠和希望 只盼最後就算帶回滿身傷痕的身軀 也能說：我依然相信美好 // 生日說這個是不是有點奇怪 但今天聽到歌頌者最後一句 「說我不笨」 好痛 好真實 因為這就是我就算竭盡一生也要讓自己清楚知道的事