What a Year of feeling inadequate, insecure, unjust, distrust, disappointment in humans (no job, no interviews, no money, no house, no brains, no good ratings) (zero inspiration for half a year was terrifying and painful - as it led to a serious identity crisis, but thankgod they returned in the later half) (clueless res classes became sleeping w pama was ridiculous too) (a scan of my past igs reminded me of what a complete wreck i was at therapy and the pms i had that 波及ed my parents) but also of pure joy from being with the ones i love (all the fun dinners, celebrations, weekends, studio photoshoot and dragonboat with pama; ubin w pa; jeju w v accommodating jo) (wawa concert, yoga performance, shengshengbuxi, taohuawu 650, pijingzhanji4 - side note zaijianairen was cray) and knowing how much i am cared for even when i may not deserve it (qp, al, 00, mlian, min, cy, jy, yp, zx, andy, wm, gugus, ahgus, gen, moo, esther, xt, cheryl) pushed myself on for several a...
