2024

What a Year 

of feeling inadequate, insecure, unjust, distrust, disappointment in humans

(no job, no interviews, no money, no house, no brains, no good ratings)

(zero inspiration for half a year was terrifying and painful - as it led to a serious identity crisis, but thankgod they returned in the later half)

(clueless res classes became sleeping w pama was ridiculous too)

(a scan of my past igs reminded me of what a complete wreck i was at therapy and the pms i had that 波及ed my parents)

but also of pure joy from being with the ones i love

(all the fun dinners, celebrations, weekends, studio photoshoot and dragonboat with pama; ubin w pa; jeju w v accommodating jo)

(wawa concert, yoga performance, shengshengbuxi, taohuawu 650, pijingzhanji4 - side note zaijianairen was cray)

and knowing how much i am cared for even when i may not deserve it 

(qp, al, 00, mlian, min, cy, jy, yp, zx, andy, wm,  

gugus, ahgus, gen, moo, esther, xt, cheryl)

pushed myself on for several adventures 

(therapy sessions; prop course and exam lol and the recruitment talk; contacting and meeting new ppl like raymond, yew, min; tried piloxing; went fr fz networking)

(also the new food i've come to appreciate - jeju, viet, thai, and warabimochi)

and was lucky to have been given many opportunities to explore 

(panel, forum, awardc interview, bu updates, student sharing, cast meet, presscon, prison)

(also super lucky to have won angpows in two luckydraws - cny $$ and shougong toto ticket)

while the road ahead will not be rosy - and it may never be

but i have to remember to be thankful and contented 

to the people i have crossed paths with 

to those who gave me their precious time 

to those who loved me when i don't love enough 

thank you, thank you, thank you 

and thank you, wei

for trying and dragging yourself through uncertain times  

it's been a tough year 

and we've come a long way 

明年，

要变得更强大，

做一个可以让爸妈依靠休息的大人

#1 - drive 

#2 - get a client and clinch a deal 

#3 - reply

also, must do - write and reflect 

never lose sight of yourself

and never forget why you do what you do 

keep running 

keep going 

we can do this!