to wait for death,
to wait for a close one who's approaching death or deterioration of mind,
i can't imagine,
and i would never want to imagine.
i've never really faced anyone leaving.
my granddad left when i was at a mere age of 6 or 7,
i saw how my aunts and uncles cry their hearts out,
i saw how my mom's anguish engulfed her like never before,
i saw how so many of them,
could not bear the departure of their dad/uncle/relative,
but i couldn't understand why.
now, it's different.
i remember how much dislike and sadness was in me when i saw my granduncle was cremated
but truthfully, i didn't know him well, so i can't imagine,
imagine what if i know that person so well,
what if that person plays such an important role in my life
that i can't imagine if he/she's missing one day
and that death was why they are away.
grandmum's condition isn't what it seem to be
everyone's worried,
everyone's afraid,
i can't imagine how much sadness is in my dad,
who, because of my mum and i, spent minimal time with her in recent years.
i regret not spending more time with her when i could,
i regret not even willing to go due to fear of cats and rats around the area,
what stupid reasons?
i can't imagine how stupid i was at not treasuring.
but, how sad life is?
she craves attention, she craves the accompaniment of her children and grandchildren,
but she has never had it,
till she got sent to hospital.
every human being has been taking things for granted, taking time for granted, taking loved ones for granted,
when crisis pasts, one forgets and things return to the same again.
it's okay... really?
we'll all be okay someday
but she'll never be.
she'll not know what happened
but just feel pain, feel upset,
but she'll never know cause they don't want her to know.
i don't knw how to access this idea
but since it's so, keep it as such.
stay as such,
don't move on anymore,
let it stay that small and benign,
please.
and thankyou, dear muni :)
kevin's way worked surprisingly
improved by that little bit o.o
to wait for a close one who's approaching death or deterioration of mind,
i can't imagine,
and i would never want to imagine.
i've never really faced anyone leaving.
my granddad left when i was at a mere age of 6 or 7,
i saw how my aunts and uncles cry their hearts out,
i saw how my mom's anguish engulfed her like never before,
i saw how so many of them,
could not bear the departure of their dad/uncle/relative,
but i couldn't understand why.
now, it's different.
i remember how much dislike and sadness was in me when i saw my granduncle was cremated
but truthfully, i didn't know him well, so i can't imagine,
imagine what if i know that person so well,
what if that person plays such an important role in my life
that i can't imagine if he/she's missing one day
and that death was why they are away.
grandmum's condition isn't what it seem to be
everyone's worried,
everyone's afraid,
i can't imagine how much sadness is in my dad,
who, because of my mum and i, spent minimal time with her in recent years.
i regret not spending more time with her when i could,
i regret not even willing to go due to fear of cats and rats around the area,
what stupid reasons?
i can't imagine how stupid i was at not treasuring.
but, how sad life is?
she craves attention, she craves the accompaniment of her children and grandchildren,
but she has never had it,
till she got sent to hospital.
every human being has been taking things for granted, taking time for granted, taking loved ones for granted,
when crisis pasts, one forgets and things return to the same again.
it's okay... really?
we'll all be okay someday
but she'll never be.
she'll not know what happened
but just feel pain, feel upset,
but she'll never know cause they don't want her to know.
i don't knw how to access this idea
but since it's so, keep it as such.
stay as such,
don't move on anymore,
let it stay that small and benign,
please.
and thankyou, dear muni :)
kevin's way worked surprisingly
improved by that little bit o.o
