sick,
sick of letting hopes fall from sky high,
sick of falling from the top all down to a never ending bottom,
and finally, i'm sick of being the loser who screwed up my own life.
year after year,
i've been making the same old mistake of slacking.
because of slacking, i'm left with 3 weeks 3 WEEKS to finish LEARNING and fine-tune my piano songs
with only 1 completed, and 2 half-learnt.
yea, i'm sure i'll be able to do that, sure.
and for slacking,
i ended up having great grades of UEE
of which GP has a U
from a C to an E to a U
this jump from start to mid year is, all i can say, a horrendous one.
how the hell did i allow myself to get a freaking U for GP?
and i'm a freaking arts student wts
how how how? :(
maths is coming back tmr while history's back next week.
but the problem here is,
lohyanxiang said that our class didn't do well for maths
so yea, how dead is that :(
i cant, cant, CANT allow my maths to get below a B
if i did, i, would probably kill myself.
(right, not really killing myself but my brain/heart/soul, would be crushed into pieces due to the great volume of
guilt + incapability + feeling of a loser)
this is an irritating post,
i bet anyone would find it irritating incl me.
cause all that i'm doing now,
is simply crying over that split over milk.
sucker.
i have 3 weeks to piano exam
and 2 months to promos
so now the deal is,
either sacrifice "joy", or you fail like shit and retain.
i hate it when my emotions sink all the way down and cry like a baby in front of others
this sucks
so the only way to counter it,
is to mug, mug, mug and prac, prac, prac.
sick of letting hopes fall from sky high,
sick of falling from the top all down to a never ending bottom,
and finally, i'm sick of being the loser who screwed up my own life.
year after year,
i've been making the same old mistake of slacking.
because of slacking, i'm left with 3 weeks 3 WEEKS to finish LEARNING and fine-tune my piano songs
with only 1 completed, and 2 half-learnt.
yea, i'm sure i'll be able to do that, sure.
and for slacking,
i ended up having great grades of UEE
of which GP has a U
from a C to an E to a U
this jump from start to mid year is, all i can say, a horrendous one.
how the hell did i allow myself to get a freaking U for GP?
and i'm a freaking arts student wts
how how how? :(
maths is coming back tmr while history's back next week.
but the problem here is,
lohyanxiang said that our class didn't do well for maths
so yea, how dead is that :(
i cant, cant, CANT allow my maths to get below a B
if i did, i, would probably kill myself.
(right, not really killing myself but my brain/heart/soul, would be crushed into pieces due to the great volume of
guilt + incapability + feeling of a loser)
this is an irritating post,
i bet anyone would find it irritating incl me.
cause all that i'm doing now,
is simply crying over that split over milk.
sucker.
i have 3 weeks to piano exam
and 2 months to promos
so now the deal is,
either sacrifice "joy", or you fail like shit and retain.
i hate it when my emotions sink all the way down and cry like a baby in front of others
this sucks
so the only way to counter it,
is to mug, mug, mug and prac, prac, prac.
