i wonder why one thing can change me immediately.
i want to escape to somewhere where nothing can affect me
i want to stop doing things i had been doing
i want to just skip everything
cause everything
suddenly seem to be so different
making me afraid of what seems to be in stored for me isn't what it seemed.
and i don't know why.
many things just seemed to be packed in a way that is not its true self.
suddenly,
it just feel as if as i'm alone again.
i keep telling people not to think too much,
and i can't convince myself with that,
now i understand.
life is an argumentative essay,
i still think that it is.
i contradict myself whenever there is a tinge of sadness glooming
and i can stop thinking deeper
and i thought it worked in making my life happier.
yet suddenly,
it didn't seem to work,
i can't find enough points to contradict the question in mind.
when people being cared doesn't care,
the one that cares undergoes the agony,
which no one cares.
things beyond limits are always the best
it's useless, cause no one bothers no matter how much you thought they did,
for the fact of being second just can't change.
so what about sacrificing so much,
cause no one bothers.
i want to talk to you
but i'm scared,
really scared.
thankyou shimei, thankyou <3
i want to escape to somewhere where nothing can affect me
i want to stop doing things i had been doing
i want to just skip everything
cause everything
suddenly seem to be so different
making me afraid of what seems to be in stored for me isn't what it seemed.
and i don't know why.
many things just seemed to be packed in a way that is not its true self.
suddenly,
it just feel as if as i'm alone again.
i keep telling people not to think too much,
and i can't convince myself with that,
now i understand.
life is an argumentative essay,
i still think that it is.
i contradict myself whenever there is a tinge of sadness glooming
and i can stop thinking deeper
and i thought it worked in making my life happier.
yet suddenly,
it didn't seem to work,
i can't find enough points to contradict the question in mind.
when people being cared doesn't care,
the one that cares undergoes the agony,
which no one cares.
things beyond limits are always the best
it's useless, cause no one bothers no matter how much you thought they did,
for the fact of being second just can't change.
so what about sacrificing so much,
cause no one bothers.
i want to talk to you
but i'm scared,
really scared.
thankyou shimei, thankyou <3
