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難得暇意 過了最難過的一關 雖然 是失敗的 但也只能往前看 把還能做的盡力做好 簡單生活 關關難過關關過 生活或許就如此簡單

難受 是因為 這世界真的不如他們敘述地美好 是因為 這世界真的似乎將我的純淨洗去 可最重要的    是因為 我不再是那個能夠給予他們很多很多正面力量的小天使

有些朋友 是成天見面還是會在不見時想念 是全年不見還是會在見面時依偎 那，那些 成天見面卻越見越不想見 和 全年不見卻仍然不想念也不想見的 朋友 他們 還是朋友嗎？

如果只執著于我所失去的 那我還到底還剩下什麼 空蕩蕩的軀殼和滿懷怨恨的心靈 這不是我所想要的我 改變是必須的 可心態怎麼能如此難以轉換呢？ 明明知道做得多得到的便比不做更多 但為何總是只能專注在不如意的短期利益 而迷失了過去的初衷和未來的收獲 變 遍 便 變

在迷霧逢甘露時的幻想 和有意又無意的堆砌詞藻 雨水綿綿 流水船川 天逐潔白而清 身卻秋淒而侵 心仍盼月舞琴 無望只可對酒嘆吟

is it the rat race? feels uptight about not applying and getting permanent jobs somehow perhaps the elevated sense of worth lol i've suddenly felt an interest in large companies but applications for most have ended or require a 6mth internship experience as a head-start but there are so many practical constraints that i have to consider and clashes with my personal pursuit of interests dang go back to work you just had a 3hr afternoon nap girl

遺憾 Shit happens, but often for a reason. 遺憾是止不住的黑色血液 從傷口處開始噴灑流淌 沾染身上各處細胞 如藤蔓般纏繞各個希望 I've got what I wanted for when I first set out on this journey To push my luck for more, or regret for not getting more, may not be the best move after all. Regardless, I've got back my confidence and belief in my strengths And that is sufficient. Contentment. Back to work. Back to responsibilities. In any case, I'm thankful for friends who shared my pain/ache, and thankful for the then-birthday girl for her luck and time on that Friday at Starbucks ;) I got it ^^ (but I had to miss the second round)