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haven't got over the concert :) :D

friigggggggin screwed up life for the past week lost my wallet with the incompetent admins who only knows how to say GET A LOCKER :@ freaking upset cause it was a freaking theft case which seems like "its just another THREE cases, whatever" to the authorities !%!#$@!$!#% what about you buying a locker and leading a snr high life noww tell me how convenient it is fffff for that, i lost not only my wallet and its contents, i lost my maths sigma knowledge friggin assholic i know nothing about that freaking E sign that looks weird and i cant do anything when my tutor dont even bother about it told her school finished the notes and all she bothered was when she could play the phone and thus left me with a 4paged knwledge while the other pages remained BLANK said i didnt do enough hmwk but freaking hell i managed to squeeze as much work for you to mark alr and all you could say was, it's all wrong, it's not enough and you didn't fucking mark at all wts told you manymany...

my mum managed to catch this epic thingy ytd that was the first time she took out her phone to video and it blacked out o.o haha she thought it was her phone's prob :P wheeeeee it was such a memorable concerttttt :D I♥DHSGE and i really dreamt that we were in a blacked out concert :( at midnight and couldn't sleep for that ~10mins o.o

there are so many things to say but in all, it was a showcase of love and unity of DHSGE♥ we are made up of people who came from various (as in realllly various) ccas in jnr high ugs (guides,scouts,sjab,npcc), sports, clubs and performing arts and of which, most of us have no whatsoever concert experience yet, even though a blackout happened on our first concert, there was the DHSGE spirit, that brought us through tough (i.e. awkward) times like just now :) to prevent seniors from being unable to continue the performance, to prevent timepiece II from being unable to end, to prevent ourselves from being unable to hold our heads high knowing that we had finished a performance that we are proud of even if many many cockups happened in the process, we continued. even louder, even stronger, even better, even ever more united ♥ greatest thankyous to seniors & kevin:D for they were there when there were difficulties and obstacles to go through for being upset and pissed but kept going all...

back from danzage... and became uber scared of tmr's guitar concert after reading dawn's mail :/ afraid that i'll do something really wrong in stage mvmt, afraid that i'll screw Y6's last guitar performance in some ways, afraid that many many many unfortunate events will happen :( but i must be sure that i won't be part of the screw up if it happens. there's this "sense of urgency" word in her mail, and i realised. even if i'm in guitar and tmr's guitar concert, values learnt from guides could not be neglected. (especially so if there are guides seniors and UGs in the ensemble) and i feel bad to kim cham what if she cant loooook charming without contacts tmr gaaaaa i'll feel bad :( hehehe hope that her eyes will shine brightly tmr :D

I LOVE LIFE :) many many things happened these days especially ytd, 20/4 bad day, bad mood, bad xiaowei. whatever it is and much as i would like to state it down as a reminder abt what happened, i shall wait, till i'm free-er perhaps after sat, or most likely, after 3 may and it shall be the time for work that i had neglected greatly.

可能心情不好，所以對瑣事都會產生一些的感觸 對於今晚又要凌晨三點才能睡讓我的心情變差 又被一只貓嚇倒，讓淚腺開始產生反應 卻強忍了下來。 但一路回來，聽著五月天的〈純真〉讓我突然開始想起好些事... 難道現在的我們，已經失去了當初孩子時期的純真 勾心鬥角，難道已成了為了存活在社會中的先決條件？ 如此的思想逐漸將當初在Childcare CIP時的 jinkai 帶近腦海 他們的日子主要以玩樂度過，而玩樂卻成了我們現在的奢侈品, 到底何時才能夠脫離大家給與的期望和壓力 讓我們能夠當真正的當自己，而不是別人希望看到的我們... 累了吧，才會產生這些感觸， 讓眼淚短暫地流下... 負面的能量，請離開吧 :) 決定讓自己任性一次， 不做作業了， 被罰也罷了， 我只想讓自己開心地入睡。 ESTHER - MAYDAY :D thankyouu!