1921

2020 . 好多人很討厭的一年，卻也是我過得挺開心的一年。開朗多了，樂觀多了，也更容易滿足了；陪伴家人的時間多了，情感更深了；經常見面以及透過遠程關心的朋友們，也更珍惜了 . 可惜獨處的時間多，懶惰的我也變得散漫了。幸好在比較積極的幾個月裡還是嘗試了幾個新事物（烘培，寫詞，做義工，參加原本排斥的聚會，幫家人網上賣貨等等），很充實很盡興很愉快，只是明年要更努力，不可以再廢下去了（!!!） . 雖然對於認真努力真誠熱愛生活的榜樣黃鴻升在這一年被帶走而感到不甘，可是我會謹記：「沒關係」；「樂觀不強求」；「其實最重要的定番是努力和成長。」 . 今年最大的收穫莫過於發現並感激如此寵愛和保護我的家人及朋友（海鮮，蛋糕，BBT，飲料，聚餐，視訊，爬山踏青騎車看戲玩飛盤，尋找幸福），謝謝身邊的每一個你～ Thankful for  - Papa and Mama, for everything. For all the happiness and joy, giving in to me, bringing so much comfort physically and mentally, supportive in everything I do, and for staying strong despite falling ill (dad during cb) or falling down (mom during xmas) — 長大了才發現，原來擁有你們如知己般的父母，是我多大多大的幸運 ❤️ - Grandma and Uncle, for all the seafood and concern that they have showered us with throughout the year  - Jo, for sticking by me and entertaining me w texts nearly everyday, cycling buddy and being my film/drama buddy from 想見你 at the start to 刻在你心底的名字 at the end of the year  - Yangz for doting on me so much and (job) counsellin...

A very eventful weekend - but prob because I spend too much time sleeping th other days away hahah  So fri morn was spent at the hospital for podiatry consultation - and the doc was rlly rlly nice and professional about it (The precious doc scarred us w his black face and nonchalant attitude tsk hahah) Finally found out why my bunions were formed and how we can prevent the condition from aggravating - got to say it’s quite interesting to hear abt the bones etc  And the best part was the whole session ended in 1.5hrs w only ard 15mins waiting time - as compared to the 1 or 2 hours for previous sessions cries  Then dad sporadically agreed to drive to Jem to watch number 1 (wowowow)  I’m v impressed by the amount of effort gone into the show regardless of award recognition or not - sgpride! Then we walked ard Jem and Westgate (since we alr made our way to the west) and parents were full of compliments abt how encompassing the Malls are  And I dropped off a Christma...

 我很疲累  想寫些什麼  沒想到居然自動寫出了上面那一句話 🙈 很慶幸來到這個工作環境 讓我可以做自己舒服自在的樣子  發現世界的人各種各樣  不需要隨波逐流地當摸一種模型

 Several other things happened since the last update  - and one discovery about myself is that...  I’ve been quite a happy kid this year  Such that I couldn’t think of an answer when someone asked when was the last time I cried  Like I could because I’m a crybaby so I cry every other day because of things I read or watch  But there wasn’t anything horrible that happened to me personally (thank goodness) And I asked mama to which she also agrees that I’ve been quite happy this year  Which makes me wonder why exactly - was it because I didn’t have much on my plate such that I wasn’t stressed  Or because I didn’t have to be involved in much social interactions this year due to all the stayhome restrictions  Or because I’ve gotten more at ease with myself and learnt to care only about what’s impt  Or am I in such a state of denial that I’m oblivious to many things that I shld be concerned about  In any case  Here’s a mental note to...

 努力是最值得做 却最不值得提的事 每个人都很努力 你努力了却达不到成果 不是意味着你不够努力 就是表明你不够天分和能力

 I like the feeling of steeping out of my comfort zone  Volunteered (finally!!) for four saturdays and felt so purposeful after them (even tho I nap right away as I rlly cmi after waking up at 730 for the 830am session (thank goodness it’s so near the house and fr dad’s prompt assistance when I missed the bus and was about to be late hahah I like the youthful vibes - they are possibly 5-9years younger I cry - and how straightforward some can be haha But what I love most was how all their hearts eventually became sincere about helping  Evident from how many complained abt being unable to cope at the first session  To the third session when I was and the fourth session when another girl was upset about failing / not giving enough attention to our seniors because we had to juggle two at one go  And the sharing at the end when everyone talks about how much they enjoyed being in the seniors company and how much closer they’ve become over the course of 4 weeks  T...

What does National Day mean to you?  For me, it’s a day with grandpa ❤️ The whole family used to spend the National Day at our house in the past Everyone took time off to gather here where we would catch the planes and fireworks in amazement together  However, ahma and gonggong wouldn’t get to watch the fireworks w us as it was inconvenient for them to walk a distance away from the house But the rest of the time was still spent with them watching the rest of us having fun and simply gathering tgt  That to me, on hindsight, was quality time because it was time with them.  To be honest, I used to dislike it for the mess that we have to clean up after  But last year, I’m glad we gathered, even though they can’t be with us anymore. As time passed and everyone ended up having their own ND plans Gathering at our house became rather rare   But dad made it a point to be at tgpg to be with grandpa - where he accompanied him and told him whatever that was going on on...